be still and know

Today after cleaning up my apartment I felt so relaxed. I loved how quiet, clean, and serene it was. Perfect time to sit and be still, it was awesome.

Of course this is a daily goal, living life out of control, my control and letting God be in control of who I am and what He wants me to be. Daily. When you realize that God loves you and has a plan and you still fight to be in control.

I sat out in the yard almost in the field after it was freshly mown and just waited until the deers began to cross. I wanted to run and get a camera, but then I decided to not make it about capturing them. The sun was setting and it was awe… mazing.

This morning before we even got up we prayed for a peaceful and productive day and thanked God for being together. It feels good to start my day like that.

To me, “be still and know” means to be still and have faith. Even when we have no feelings or emotions, or even when our feelings and emotions are ones of frustration (which we should not harbor) or disappointment, we can still commune with God through faith. If we believe that God dwells in us and loves us, then why do we need feelings to prove it? We can simply look at Jesus within our soul using faith. Even though this communion with God is invisible, and it often feels like nothing, it is very profound and deep. Be still and know.

I stayed late the other night praying. I’ve been having a lot on my mind, and it’s hard to sleep so the other night I just prayed, I also wrote in my prayer journal and it felt so good. It was so quiet in the apartment. It was good to relax and let God take care of my problems. What a concept, uh? haha

...for a few moments…yet, it was enough to know :)
I sat on the grass in the garden, eating an orange, feeling the warmth of the sun and just being still
It was great! ;)

Just an total feeling of unworthiness, unworthiness at the love that God gives me, the care he takes of me, the blessings he allows me.

First off a sad note, the little catipillar who has been greating me at the front door every morning at 5:30am to smile and remind me to be happy while I work out, got squished, don’t know who, but it was pretty tragic, that happened yesterday, then today I work up and there in the bush right by the door was a bird’s nest with two little blue eggs in it. How awesome is God…

It is a quiet, cloudy, fall day. I felt God’s presence this morning unexpectedly. It was such an overwhelmingly peaceful feeling.