I want to lose 30 pounds

I stopped the snacking on peanut m&m’s. I have healthy snacks like yogurt at work. I have water and fruit juice. I do cardio at least 4 days a week. Sometimes more. I do it as much for my mental health as my physical. I just don’t feel as good on the days I don’t exercise. Something feels missing. Yet I’ve gained 18 pounds since July. I know part of it is that I went on a medication that causes weight gain. Except for my stomach, my legs and arms look trim. I don’t have a double chin. One woman thought I was pregnant so I’ve got to change this cycle somehow. I’m throwing the shirt I was wearing at the time away! LOL The only thing I’m not doing is counting calories for every meal. On line weight watchers was helpful. Maybe I should do them again.

working and snacking just seem to go together. have a stressful morning? I sure deserve a bag of peanut m&m’s! I need to find a reward other than food when I feel stressed. How about a walk around the building or sit outside in the sun a few minutes? I also need to decrease the amount of salt along with the sugar. Salt retains water. At least I am still exercising.

that’s what they call it when you’re over 40 and the fat goes to your gut and you can’t get rid of it. I figured up that my 2 mile morning walk gives me 14 miles a week. Using the elliptical at the gym 4 times a week gives me another 8 to 12. Generally walking is 2 miles a day times 7 equals 14. I walk around 40 miles a week and can’t lose any weight! I lift weight 4 times. My legs are muscular not fat. It’s all in my stomach. It has to be my diet. Since I have been able to eat again, I haven’t been mindful about the fruits and veggies. Lots of carbs but the cravings have been unreal!Time for online weight watchers again? I’m glad I can generally hide the gut with my clothes. If it weren’t for the exercise, I’d probably weigh 20 pounds more!

People who see me think I’ve lost a lot of weight. What a mystery. I have been exercising so maybe the muscles I’m developing are holding in the fat better. My legs look good from all the walking. It’s my gut that needs help. But no corset! Those things are like a tourniquet!

I think I’ve lost at least 2 more pounds. I’m eating less due to nausea and exercising more because that helps the nausea so I can eat. This is the damndest diet I’ve ever been on. I don’t recommend getting sick so you can lose weight. It has forced me to balance food and exercise in ways I’d never have thought of.

Well today I got up at 6:30am and started with a prayer to get me through this day without indulging in foods. I’ve done really well I ate low fat yogurt for breakfast for lunch some raw veggies and baked chicken. After my lunch I went for a 15min walk and man was it HOT today!!! When I got off I walked a mile at the park while I waited for my stepdad too get off work. Now Im at home thinking about dinner and don’t know what I want to make. Its getting late so I know I need to eat something lite maybe a salad hmmm im not sure.

Well I went for a three mile walk today and ate very lite with plenty of filtered water. This seems to be keepin me on track its like keeping a dairy I can look back on it and say hey have Ive done this? It keeps me focused!!

Well looking at me most say that I look about 170 pounds but the truth is Im about 255. Man that’s hard to admit but it’s the first step to my recovery.

I seem to have lost 5 pounds. Strangely, my sugar craving got better when I gave up Splenda. I am exercising and spending active time cleaning and reorganizing my home. I have also reduced the amount of food I eat. Maybe I can crack the 150s. That would be truly amazing.

Okay. I feel like a fat cow and its almost summer. Time to change some things. I just bought an elliptical and it has become my new bff. I have worked out 5/9 days that Ive had it, but thats not enough for me. So today I am dedicating myself. I will work out AT LEAST 5 times a week for AT LEAST 30 minutes. I made a workout cd with all of my favorites and all together the cd is 73 minites. So Ill listen to 10+ songs per workout. And Ill shuffle so its not the same 10 songs every time. I already eat less than usual, and I drink way more water but its still only 5 or 6 bottles a day. I want to increase water and decrease pasta (which we have almost every night). Thats the hard part. My fiance is trying to gain weight! So I have to be tough and stick to my plan or I will gain too. Anyways I dont have a scale (I need to go get one) so I dont know exactly how much I weigh, but I would guess 160. Ive been up to 172 and down to 140 (my weight fluctuates like crazy, I think I have an eating disorder or something) but lately I have been the same fatness. My hips are 42”, my waist is 36” and my bust is 38” (34C) so im 38-36-44. At least my waist is the smallest part…Im still a fatty. But im 5’6. My BMI is 25.8 and the overweight category is 25-29.9. So I am a little overweight. If I was down to 130 (my goal) then my BMI would be 21, which is in the normal category. Im on a mission. I hope I reach my goal!!