do something that scares me

...and married to a man who thinks skydiving is the next best thing since sliced bread. So I think I know where I might be going with this, but it terrifies the be-jeezus out of me.

I did something pretty unlike me. And I think it was probably really stupid. But it was fun, harmless, and achieved a goal of mine- because it scared the crap out of me.

It was worth it, for sure.

To people working on this themselves- I wish you all the best and I gotta say just get out there. Even if you accomplish this goal like I have, it doesn’t mean you should forget about it – because I do want to do things that scare me again. Its good to get out of your comfort zone. It makes things happen.

I have never acted before in front of strangers and have always wanted to so, in full costume of V for Vendetta, I did the V speech in front of hundreds of people I didn’t know and was praised to my surprise. I was very excited that day. I got random hugs and “i love you’s” but the most surprising and flattering was when people tackled me and said they loved me. I’ve never felt that much compassion so I was very happy that day.

My friend and I were physically attacked and humiliated by a group of stupid childish car dealers. I wrote letters to the company but they refuse to handle it. Being the wallflower myself, I can never imagine myself calling up every local TV news station to get the spotlight on them to have them fired. But I did. This one reporter was interested in my story, but she didn’t show up. :(

I hate making phone calls. My heart races and I can’t get words out of my mouth. But I was forced to make 30 phone calls in one day just to get a bail bond for my future husband. I stuttered terribly and can’t make coherent sentences. But even though I still hated it, by the 8th call I didn’t care anymore if they judged me or not. I just want my honey out of that nasty place. That’s the only way I can get pass my phone phobia.

I kinda started this one rolling.

When I went to London, I HATE tubes. And although I refused most of the day I did go on 4. And I was proud-ish. Though annoyed I restricted the person I went with so much because I refused to go on them.

Last year I sky dived.
This year I’m thinking of bungee jumping.
I can’t think of anything that scares me more.
But I was always the kid that never dared no anything.
Even when I booked my skydive no one believed I would do it.
So not I’ve decided I want to do something that scares me every year. Just to prove to the world that I can. I don’t want to live life with regrets.

I went to Hershey Park about 12 years ago. My ex wanted me to ride the big rollerocaster with him. I felt like I was going to throw up just thinking about it. I said I would go with him later. He went alone. I never did get on the rollercoaster. Now this was my first vacation ever in my life and I wasn’t sure if I would ever get to go again. I left the park with such a feeling of regret. I promised myself two things. #1 if I ever get the chance to ride that rollerocaster again, I will. #2 to never let myself feel that horrible feeling of regret ever again by doing the things that scare me. I went back to the Park the next year and rode the Rollercoaster and I ride every single one at any park I go to even though it scares me. I have never regret it. There has been only one regret in my life since that day, that when I left my horrible ex that I didn’t take ALL the money in the savings account, since he stuck me with a lot of bills aafterwards.

... an seeing the huge needle that was to enter in my vein was quite scary ! could have run away, but stayed there, let the girl put that super thick needle in my poor little arm, didn’t even faint… This goal is officially achieved !

I’m just making drive its own goal. I think this goal is more to identify what scares me and to make it its own goal as opposed to a goal that will eventually be marked as done. Let’s see what I come up with next, eh?