stop being invisible

I feel like nobody cares.. but I also think I brought it upon myself. I need to be more social.

even though, im pretty sure im only invisible to the people who dont deserve to see me.

I feel like I am one of those people that no one would notice if they disappeared. I feel like this with my family, work, friends, etc… I am not one of those people that command attention 24/7 but damnit I want to be heard too. How do I get over this??

even I’ve stopped noticing myself. It’s like, what’s the point? I’m nothing special, never was. I refuse to settle for this though.

has to do with being liked…fitting in…not that I am a rebel, far from it….for me it is more about my age, women over a certain year disappear. I refuse, I refuse to fit anyone’s idea of appropraite appearance for an over 50…I am beautiful and getting even better, that is my goal. I am so visible for the first time in my life and so very unafraid.

It’s weird how some people automatically command attention, while others are always unnoticed, even when they try their hardest to be heard. It doesn’t make sense…

I’m not exactly the “invisible” type, but I do have those experiences sometimes. I can stand next to someone for 5 minutes without them realising I’m there. Whenever I start to talk, someone else starts to speak over me. Sometimes I even resort to putting up my hand – it’s the only way to get people’s attention…even when I’m around my friends. I don’t really mind that much, but it can be rather off-putting sometimes. Anyway, I’ve decided to get rid of this goal, because even though I do feel invisible often, it isn’t that important. I dunno – there are other even more invisible people out there that deserve my attention.

I’ve decided this is a stupid goal, for me at least. Enough self-pity, and get on with life. Not everyone can be in the spotlight.

I’m lucky.
I have a lot of good friends.
It’s just the people I really want me to notice me never do.

People used to have private conversations in front of me, because I was so quiet and inconsequential. I wish I could literally fade out of existence.

Im too friendly and therefore invisible. Believe me. They see the word ‘sucker’ on my forhead. A month ago I decided to stop smiling so much and being overly engratiating. It has worked. I am amazed. I never knew you could be rewarded for not being so friendly…...or perhaps not being a doormat….