In the midst of preparation for relocating permanently to New York, I say farewell and so long to Los Angeles.
L.A. was only ever a detour for me, one that lasted longer than intended – while the ultimate goal was to embrace the many artistic opportunities in the best city in the world, New York. L.A. was certainly a “learning experience”.
I have lived in L.A. for almost 5 years. I have watched my self esteem become greatly effected over time and felt like I was living in a bubble in this ego driven place. The air is so polluted and on my last year of living in L.A. I am now experiencing respiratory problems.
To me, L.A. is a very depressing place. One that is soley based on fame and fortune in the entertainment industry and those that will do whatever it takes to achieve it. Desperation, neediness and isolation, clones with robotic dialogue, insincere folk with plastic exterior to match. I never belonged in L.A. because I wasn’t willing to play “the game”. I always remained true to myself and stood by my morals while seeing those around me lose their indentity in the city of false happiness.
It saddend me to witness actors eagerly pawing themselves over the director or producer at film screenings and events in Hollywood in order to be noticed. Blondes are not taken seriously nor respected. In Hollywood, “blonde” is a personality and you are treated as you appear. I found myself wanting less and less to do with the business side which to me is the ultimate turn off to Hollywood – business first, talent last, or so it is recognized.
I found total inspiration and passion in NY where the focus remains on talent as opposed to botox – a place where I am accepted for who I am and not because of my dress size. NY made me want to be a better actor. I feel more driven, renewed and refreshed in NY!
Another problem with L.A. is flakiness! Prior to coming to L.A. never in my life had I met such an odd breed of people who rejoiced in bailing on plans at the last minute with no consideration for the other person.
Fellow actors who would invite me to come and see their play in L.A. and would ask me how their performance was urgently needing an ego boost. Don’t give a compliment to anyone in L.A., they’ll keep the conversation going about why they look so good or how outstanding their talent is.
NY, I welcome you with open arms! Leaving L.A. in December – yay!!!!





