be a better mommy

Currently I am a single mother (though I have a boyfriend), to a beautiful and very smart 8 month old baby boy. His name is Aiden.
I also work a ful time job at the local Taco Mac, which is a bar down here in georgia.
My hours are from 6 pm to 4 AM … I work these hours because at 7 pm my son goes to sleep for the night, so him and i don’t really spend too much time apart. It works out for this reason, but I don’t get nearly enough sleep on the nights I work. Which stops me from being the best mommy that i can be to Aiden.
But then again, I am supporting him and doing my best for being a single mom.
Sometimes though,that optimism slips out the window.

learn to be more patient with my kids and play with them more.

Today my daughter’s day care called me that she’s not feeling good. Can’t miss work, but thought to myself, what is more important? My daughter or a job? I need my job, but i can always find a new job. My daughter is not replaceable. so i left and took her to the doctor regardless of the job. felt better than i thought I would. Felt good, because i know that for once i made the right decision.

i want to spend more time with my children. i want to actually do things that they will have such fond memories of.

I really need to be more organized with my daughter Samara… Once I give that to her I know I’ll be the best mommy I can be! I heard about a point or award program to control her bahavior better I’m trying it this week… will keep those interested posted.

I do not have the words to express how much I adore that child! Everyone but my boyfriend (her dad) tells me that I am a great mom, but I think there is always room for improvement. My realtionship with her dad is strained and I have begun drinking; this is not the solution to anything and she deserves better. Her father and I will figure it out and in the meantime I need to learn better coping skills. She doesn’t need to deal with our frustration and anger.

After my move I’m going to have to homeschool my 5 year old daughter until kindergarten time. She’s in her 2nd year of Head Start at the moment, and she loves it. One problem though, she’s quite far ahead of the other students (who range in age from 3-5 years). So I really think that it will be beneficial to her to have one on one instruction to cultivate her math and reading abilities that her preschool don’t get into very deeply. She’s coming along quite nicely though, she can sound out almost any word (even some relatively long words) and has learned to add and some subtraction. The only part I’m worried about is not having interaction with other kids, but she will be around a little girl her age and 2 smaller kids at her babysitter’s.

I was trying to think of when I should consider this goal complete. I don’t know if I will ever feel like the mother that I would like to be, although I know that I’m a much MUCH better mother than some. So here’s where I need help… in order to check this off, I need some suggestions of what a good mom is so that I can see where I stand. Anybody?

I get so tired, that is what is hard about being a good mom. She gets frustrated and I get frustrated, and when I try to hurry her up then she slows down. I want to just enjoy the moments with her. I did that on Tuesday and it was so great. We had a nice little dinner party at her daycare and had fun with playdoh at home. Just need to get more sleep and be more patient with her. She is a brilliant beautiful child.

We went out to eat today at the local steakhouse. Similar to yesterday’s dining experience, there was a kid being a loud little nut and my daughter is sitting there quietly looking at him like he’s crazy. Today she even shooshed the kid lol, but I told her not to do that.
That is the first thing that makes me feel good as a mom, but then we went shopping for winter clothes and coats. It’s so simple, but I’m glad I can afford (well…semi-afford) to get these things that she needs new (even if it as at Wal-Mart) instead of used. I know there’s a lot of parents who struggle to get clothes for their kids and some who can’t all together, and I’m blessed to be able to provide that.