be a hermit

When you feel like you have no friends anyway, when you don’t feel like there is anything to live for, sometimes it just seems like the easy, safe option. Sometimes the world is a big scary place and I just want to stay in bed and hide.

It is definately not for everyone and you have to plan ahead before making the life altering change. I left the corporate world three years ago. I have an organic garden, I make all my own clothes, I have solar panels and a modern composting toliet. I spent every waking moment in persuit of my creative ideas and projects. I laugh more, I sing more, I dance more, I play more. Today I went out and joined the snowball fight the local kids were having. I find that the hardest part, is remembering to take a break and feed yourself.

when u start to hiss at the sun whenever u leave the house.. its a bad thing.

;)

I don’t necessarily want to go off into the woods, but I do want that feeling of self-reliance (in action as well as in intellect). I suppose this is not exactly hermitude, but this reminds me of Thoreau and he was technically a hermit as a well as self-reliant. I need to clear the palate of my head by locking myself away from distractions, get bored, and start thinking of ways to combat it.

As soon as I publish my book, I will make the first steps toward filling this wish – quit my job and move to CO.