All of it made me happy today. 9 months ago

My best friend spent the night last night and it was truly awesome! She is so loud and obnoxious but will all her little sayings she made me laugh quite a lot. Ah, sick! I ain’t even mad! At work yesterday, my manager mentioned how I was leaving, and I told him I had an internship with a social services place, and he said “it takes a special person to do that.” So I guess I should take that as a compliment. I enjoyed talking with my foreign friend. I am glad we have psychology in common and can talk to each other about things. My relationship with her is much different than it is with my friend from home. My relationship with my foreign friend is much more serious and academic but she is still hilarious and we still laugh together. I am lucky to have her as a friend. I enjoyed reading my book, which is very creepy by the way. And then I wrote. Wrote about the pain I have been feeling for years. And I just cried. I needed that. I needed to write. I still need to write and accomplish something from it. The best part of the day though was talking with my two best guy friends. I am grateful that with one of them I can talk to him about pretty much anything. As for the other guy friend, he was very sweet last night. He is very intent on getting to know me and I am very afraid to let him in because I don’t know if he could accept me for the things I have done and the person I am because of it. I told him that I am afraid to talk to him about sex, which is very most of problems lie. And he said he felt the same way. And I told him that I find him attractive. He said, he finds me good looking as well. He said my I have a pretty smile and that made me blush. And that I should smile more. And that I am a good person. And he has such gorgeous eyes. I haven’t seen eyes like that in a long ass time. 10 months ago

The good of the last two days. Someone at work had an Aladdin check. That made me squee! There’s also this guy at work who has checked me out several times. And just seeing him makes me feel a bit happy inside. And I do appreciate it when customers help bag their own groceries. One of my coworkers gave me a very nice compliment. She heard about me leaving soon and she said that she was going to miss me. That was very kind of her to me and made me smile on the inside since I had way to many things to think about when she said it. Late last night, I was working on my weekly progress report for my internship and it felt good to just express all the things that have been bothering me about it. I shared it with my friend and he told me the things I did good with my writing, which I appreciated. So I am a good writer. I must believe that. Then I let him read my 8 page memoir and he really liked it. He said it was powerful, incredible, and one of the most well written things he has read. He said he would buy it if I ever published it and he is encouraging me to write more. Perhaps I should. I always think the most complex, emotional thoughts at night when I am too tired to write it down. Even though I am doing that this very moment. Then today. I went shopping with my sister and my best friend. It was good to just get out. I got some pretty earrings for just $5! I wore my “Don’t B H8n on the Homos” shirt today. And my best friend gave me a high five because of it. <3 The best part was seeing the puppies at the pet store. I got to hold this gorgeous black and white mini schnauzer that looked like a cow! She was so cute. And the golden retriever! And listening to the Addams Family musical on the ride back. I loved the trumpet in the one song. So Latin sounding and sexy. Then finding good deals on old music. Got the Tarzan soundtrack for a buck!
I always mention the good things that happen to me, but I think I should focus on the things that I do for others that is good. I believe that is what will make me happy and feel better about myself. 10 months ago

Today was good! A couple good things happened. My sister got her driver’s license! I am so proud of her! The next good thing, I got to make three phone calls to clients in Spanish at my internship today!! I was so proud of myself. I have never done that. And the caseworker who was helping me with that, after I explain to her how my supervisor isn’t really helping me or giving me anything to do, she responded with eagerness and willingness to help make my last four weeks more fun by letting me do phone calls like that, going on visits with her, and assessing clients. I should have been doing this weeks ago! Then I went on some home visits with another caseworker and I appreciate her allowing me to come with her and the patients for feeling comfortable around me. Then this evening I hung out with my best friend from elementary school. It was fun to talk about being atheists. And reminiscing about old times. Like how we had “the talk” in elementary school and the class was separated into boys and girls and how nowadays, they will probably be giving out condoms to that age group, not deodorant and sad this is. Nobody treats sex like it is something special anymore. The only ironic thing was that she talks about her boyfriend a lot. And the reason we stopped being friends almost 6 years ago was because I was always depressed, obsessing over a boy I couldn’t have. 10 months ago

Yesterday my orthodontist reminded me of her love for me and that she loves I read books. That made me feel good about myself. I also got an email from school asking me to be apply for a tutor position for psychology/statistics. That made me feel worthy, intelligent. The joys of today-I finished my book; the last 45 pages were very good. One of the students in the English class said my Spanish pronunciation was good. YAY!! It was good to realize what’s been really bothering me-that I haven’t had a social life for the past month and a half and now I can try to fix it. Knowing that one of my best friends is willing to stand up for gay rights. And hearing the transition into the chorus, two and a half minutes into the song “Bruised” by the Bens. The drums. That is all. 10 months ago

sunrise
crisp, cool air
meetings with friends
new books 17 months ago

All I’m doing is taking advantage of Barnes N Noble wifi but it feels great getting outta my apartment even if its only to freeze in barnes n noble. i just worked 5 days straight so I’m glad for this break. 19 months ago

Planning to spend time with kids going through school work and go through what they will be learning in the coming year so they don’t get confused or find it difficult. 19 months ago

I still have some pretty cool grandparents.

A week ago, they pulled into my driveway in a shiny red sportscar. I’d only seen grandparents with these kind of cars on the highway. But there they were smiling in front of their new-used car.
When they left my place, my grandfather said, “Now, I can take your grandma out for a spin more often.” I hadn’t seen them spend real time together outside of their place in years.

And today, I went to visit them again on my grandfather’s 73rd birthday. I sat on my grandmother’s bed and talked with her about nonsense. 19 months ago

being in action rather than in my own head
coffee (which helps with the first)
the amazing array of wonderful people in my life and how well they’re all doing
a healthy family, or getting there
that there is so much love in the world
mountains, deep blue seas, endless deserts 20 months ago

feeling the chill of the air in the body cut through by the warmth of a beam of sunlight
‘quien me quita lo bailado’
knowing someone out there is, even now, slowly falling in rapturous love
getting back to gentle every day life
reading a book, in bed, eating dates 21 months ago

party balloon drifting alone down city roads
seeing the magical side of London through new eyes
a spontaneous outing with a newish friend
seeing over four stars in this city’s sky
wealth of exciting options
planes
a beautiful morning sheen 21 months ago

cycling hands off along a wet road on a moonlit night 21 months ago

Naomi: Babe, you make me the happiest girl alive. Last night I was upset, and I didn’t make it obvious at all and she asked me whats wrong, And I told her my problem and she responded sweetly. She told me she loves me more then anything in the entire world, and that nobody else could ever mean as much as I do to her. She is my heart, and my happiness and I wouldn’t know what I would do without her, shes my girlfriend and my life. I am so happy shes apart of my life, she is my life. I love her so much & she makes me so happy! Mwuah! 21 months ago

Dad: I know that sometimes you think I hate you, but I really love you, you do so much things for me and I really appreciate everything you do for me! I love you. 21 months ago

dancing in the morning
discovering a new song
the rush of love i feel when i think about my family and friends
exciting prospects in the horizon
being done with my period for another month
old photos and the desire to take more
holidays! 22 months ago

Found the time after ages to get a manicure and pedicure done. 22 months ago

Had the loveliest hug from someone I admire and respect more than anyone else in the world. I felt secure and loved. 22 months ago

My eldest did amazingly well at today’s competition. I was worried but am so proud of him. To see him happy and proud of himself is beautiful. 22 months ago

clean flat 23 months ago

feeling proud of my friends 23 months ago