discover myself, love myself, and feel free to be myself

I’ve fallen back. :(
I don’t know what is wrong with me lately. I just don’t feel like myself. For some reason, I’ve been feeling really negative. I feel like I am over high school now…that I want to get out ASAP instead of enjoy what I have left. The fact that I even have this attitude depresses me.
And as if that isn’t enough… this severe allergy thing is really messing me up. I feel all alone, like no one has any answers for me, and the doctors can’t help. My doctor says that a lot of my hives could be caused by stress and emotional baggage. True, but where is this “baggage” coming from? My aunt just told me the same thing. I don’t know where the extra emotion is coming from…but I do feel it. Randomly I have the strong urge to cry…and sometimes I can’t hold it in.
Advice? :(

I think I’ve completed this!
I mean, I know who I am know. I’ve had more than enough time to figure this ous. I’ve learned to appreciate who I am, even if others can’t.
Most importantly, I feel more comfortable with myself after this summer. My comfort zone has definately been widened. I’ve been put in a lot of new situations, in which I’ve had to really know what I stand for. Also, I’m not as easily intimidated anymore. I’ve gotten to know a wide variety of people. Even though sometimes these aren’t the people or places that I would chose to be near, at least I know what they are like now. I’m just not so naive.

I finally feel like I’ve done this. But I’m not completely sure, so I’ll keep it up for a while. My senior year is coming up, and I am making it the most of it. I will not give a hoot about the popular crowd. I will spend time with those who I love and those who love me back. I will be the best self I can be. I won’t let anyone get me down. I’ll stay away from drama. I won’t be scared. I’ll be confident.

Just a reminder to myself. I am and will be…
friendly, optimistic but also realistic, open-minded, loyal, trustworthy, creative, energetic, ambitious, flexible, patient, modest, caring, strong, intelligent, funny, easy-going, huggable, bubbly, polite and more.

I am not and will not be…
stand-offish, negative, whiney, close-minded, back-stabbing, nosey, gossipy, lazy, unmotivated, impatient, unflexible, arrogant, selfish, weak, intimidated, pouty, bored, rude, stiff, scared, jealous, snobby, etc.

:)

I am looking at different ways and techniques on feeling more confident in myself, my life and raising my 14 month old son on my own. I am a happy person generally but lately, feel as though I am not in tune with myself. Please help

I’m gaining confidence. I know who I am. I am not as easily intimidated as I was before. I care less about what the popular girls think. I have grown. I am stronger. I am a better person. I’m less stressed. I’m happier. Life is good.

I think I’m very close to checking this goal off, but I’ll still keep it here. I don’t want to check it off too soon.

how much I’ve gotten to know myself in just a number of months. I’m still working on the last couple parts…but I know it’s only a matter of time. :)

Sometimes I feel invisible. Some people see me as quiet and then they don’t take the time to get to know me because of it. So even though I’m myself, they still don’t know who I am.

I feel like I have to prove that I’m not quiet all the time and I do, in fact, have personality.

The people who do this to me are some that I’ve known for a long time and they’re supposed to be “close.” I used to try and reach out to them, make the extra effort to try and give them the sense of me.

But then I realized that they weren’t reaching back. And if the effort is only one-sided, then it is not worth it. So now I’m just trying to be myself around people who do want to be around me, instead of trying to be noticed by the “friends” who don’t try to have me involved in their lives. They are a waste of time. Maybe one day they’ll notice who I really am when I’m around some of my real friends, and they’ll come back to me. But for now, I’m not going to waste my time with those who make me feel invisible.

This year, returning to school, I’m much more confident. I know who I am, mostly.

And the best part is, I’m becoming more comfortable just being myself! Still not completely there yet, but I just try to act around everyone the way I act around my best friend—the only one who sees my complete personality. I just talk more, try to make people laugh (doesn’t always work, but its ok.) Sometimes I’m just a little more goofy.

I just want people to see the unique things about me, people to notice me a little more, and love me for who I am.

This is much more possible now when I have classes with people she’s not in. Outside of school, you always see us together, and she seems to take the spotlight more than I do. I feel like I’m shoved to the side sometimes. But things are changing, and I couldn’t be happier. :)

Well, of course I could. But I’m happy that I’m making progress :)

I’m so close to finishing this goal!
For the most part, I know who I am. I know what I like, love, hate, what annoys me, some of my morals, my goals. The only thing is…I still don’t know where I stand on certain issues. For example: Someone might ask what my opinion on abortion is, but I’m not so sure. Those kinds of things still confuse me a little, but I have plenty of time to figure those out. Besides, that does not have much to do with me anyway. And maybe I’m trying to discover myself too soon, and too fast. I have a couple years left before I really have to stand on my own, anyway.

I’m learning to love myself and all my flaws. I already know I am grateful for my family, friends, and life. I’m the one person who I tend to forget about sometimes.

Feeling free to be myself? That needs a little work. I’m the most open when I’m around my best friend. I wish I could act that way when I’m in a big group of friends. I also find I tend to shut down when guys are around. I get all quiet, and I don’t like it. Meeting new ones is especially hard for me. I get shy, and I make things awkward. I promise to change this when school starts. I think there will be so many possibilities when school starts again. I can start making friends in my new classes from Day One. :) I’m discovering lately that I gain more confidence each time I am put in a situation I’ve never been in before. So at the start of September, everything is new, and I know I can be as confident as I want if I take advantage of the opportunity.

I think I made a mistake by giving myself a deadline for this. Of course, I wanted this to happen before school started again, but I can’t rush these things. So even if I’m not 100% there by September 1, I won’t be disappointed. I’ve made a lot of progress this summer, so either way I’ll be proud of myself. :)

My best friend and I had a good, long talk the other day. We were talking about some differences we have. Recently, there have been some things she has done, and others I resisted doing. She did not understand why. Neither did some others who tried pressuring me into it. I won’t describe exactly. But basically, there are some things that people do that seem “wild” to me. Not like myself. The kinds of things that you would do in Truth or Dare. It’s the one subject I am closeminded about.

I’ve been thinking lately, why be so closeminded? I could just try it, and see what happens. It’s nothing harmful. It’s not like they want me to do drugs or drink. It’s just a little harmless fun. It does not mean anything, it’s only a game, and to most people my age, its no big deal.

How come it’s a big deal to me? Why am I so uptight about it? Prude? I think it’s because it’s new, and I’ve never done anything very crazy before in my life. Maybe it’s time to live a little and let loose.

That’s what I hope to do in the next school year. Be a little more carefree. After all, I won’t be here for much longer. I will only be this age once. I can have fun without messing things up. I know I can join in on the fun without letting their “bad influences” rub off on me.

We also talked about my shyness. At parties, I’m the one laughing at everyone else, but I don’t make people laugh. She wishes I’d act the way I do around her when I’m in a big group. She said this after I told her sometimes I feel like her sidekick, I go unnoticed, and not seen for my individuality. She hates this, and so do I. I’m tired of it. I need a little more attention this coming year. I want people to see me for who I am…not just see that for some unknown reason, I’m attached to my best friend.

We have all the same friends, so it hurts when we’re walking together somewhere and a friend will say hi to her but not me. It kills me, and now that she knows that it does, she doesn’t like it either. I’m so glad she’s willing to help me on this.

This is the only flaw I have not come to accept yet. I can’t be afraid to be outgoing.