find out who's subscribing to me :)

I don’t actually want to find out who is subscribing to me, but I want to talk about what the subscription process means to me.

Subscriber trends help me know when I am going stale…I was literally stuck at around 80 subscribers for about four or five months…and I was going stale, like bread in the cupboard long since expired. Then, as I began pushing myself to “break through and take more risks”, the subscriber count climbed.

Subscribers help me know when I’m being a wimp with no backbone or a polyanna type, empty-headed cheerleader whose words have lost meaning and credibility.

Subscriber amount fluctuations also tell me when I push the bitchiness factor to a hurtful level instead of being a strong self-respecting bitch (and I mean this in the best sense of the word) who can stand her ground but still respect others.

Subscribers coming and leaving tell me if my persona is expanding and if I am learning new things and if I am being brave enough to tread into areas of discomfort, instead of just playing it safe.

I have improved in all these areas, especially with not being afraid to use my Voice.

However, there is still an area that alludes me. I am afraid to show my vulnurabilites, to talk about the times I feel down or disillusioned. I want to be able to express myself this way during those not so bright times in my life. I think I can do this without disclosing personal things that perhaps should be kept sacred.

I believe the fear is that I will open up and no one will respond and I will feel like I’m standing out in the rain naked with cars passing by and passengers pretending that they don’t see me, LOL…There…now I’ve said it.

The point is that I think of you as 125 PEOPLE…people with blood in your veins, happiness and pain in your hearts, with brilliantness in your minds, and as having some kind of connection with me.

So this weekend, I am grateful for the people who feel enough of a common bond with me to subscribe. What a feeling of happiness it would be to be in a room together with all of you, if only for a few hours….Just the dynamics of that moment would be surreal for me.

pls drop me a message
i wanna know who ya’ll are
iwannaknow iwannaknow!

Wohoo, my numbers match again! :D I very much like the number 22, two is my favorite number after all, so what could be better than two twos!
New people have quickly been flooding in now from every possible window and every door, it seems. It’s mind-blowing! Thank you ever so much, everyone! ♥

I got my first subscriber today!
Could you please tell me who you are?

Despite having been gone for absolutely ages, I still have 83 wonderful people subscribed to me, so I just wanted to say thank you guys for staying! :)

I just noticed that our fine army is now the size of 110 units! Wohoo! There ain’t a war we couldn’t beat now! Figuratively speaking, of course – since we naturally choose to go by the right, pacifistic way.

The passenger manifest has several blank spots at the moment, if you wish to help out with that and make yourself known. ;) But not to worry, this plane will fly freely with or without blank spots!
Thanks for flying with me! I hope your flight has been and will be enjoyable! Come again!

// A few hours later: Whaaat, now we’re at 112!! That’s the Finnish equivalent to 911. :D But no worries, this isn’t an emergency – rather a time for celebration!

A year ago, around this time, I had 61 subscribers. In a year the count has almost doubled. Wow! That’s very impressive.
I have no idea where all my current 105 subscribers have come from, but I’m more than grateful for each and every one of you sweethearts and your presence! Thank you so much. ♥ I’m honoured to have all you maties sailing with me!
Yours truly,
Emilia :)

Don’t raise your hand cause I definitely won’t be able to see you..:)

if you don’t want me to tell , I’m alright with that . I’m removing this goal on Sunday so you have til then .

If you don’t want to tell I guess you don’t have to , but i would like to know:)