let go of the fantasy life I think I should be living

it’s not a reality and it was poisoning my life!

I bought an US Weekly yesterday after four months on the wagon. I’m not supposed to reading it, or any type like it, b/c it contributes to my distorted few of what my reality should be…

I’m only human…however someone is going to have to sit on me or lock me in a closet to not buy next week’s which of course will be ALL about Paris!

In my fantasy life, I am thin and put together all the time, dressed in the best designers. I am an actress, author, TV personality, and lifestyle diva. I don’t have any debt. I’m independently well-off and I jet set around the world with people like Diddy, George Clooney, and the like. I’m invited to all the best parties and events. I’m not married but I always have a fabulous escort. I have a huge gaggle of friends and we get together every week and have huge dinner parties and stay up late b/c we don’t have to be at desk jobs at 8:00 am. I am NOT on any medication AND I’m HAPPY.

I have to do everything I can to let all this go b/c I’m not going to be any of those things…ever. I need to live my real life and appreciate it. The only thing I don’t want to let go of is to one day be happy…truly and genuinely happy.