the last 24 hours of my life seem comedic. I crack myself up. They have been very memorable and not depressing. 6 years ago
I typed it while taking Neurobiology last school year. Long-term depression is sortof the opposite of long term potentiation (LTP, which is the basis of learning). Unecessary or rarely recalled memories are slowly removed. I look back at the last ten years and it’s very blurry in spots; while earlier years are more clear. I suppose I wish to make every day more interesting and rememberable. So meaning #1. I don’t want to be depressed; meaning #2. I want to live a life worth remembering. 6 years ago
Overcoming depression is a goal, but I find myself doubting it so often. I avoid day-dreaming and imagining a happier me…those thoughts are dillusional and only ever end in disappointment. I miss feeling interested and excited by new things.
However, I was truly touched when I last logged on and found that someone had cheered this goal of mine. Thank you. I feel as though others are sharing their hope with me. When I recently found 43 things I felt a need for added support and joined the next day. I am really pleased at how quickly someone encouraged my goal. 7 years ago