be a good big sister

...but I do think I’m on my way to doing it.
I gave up waiting for my Dad to call as promised, so 2 months later I stopped my stubborn-ness and called to ask to take my brother out over half term. We went to the cinema, went to the arcades and generally had a good time.
Jack (my brother): I think today’s going to be good.
Me: I hope so!
Jack: Possibly even the best day of my life!
Me: Why?
Jack: Well it always is when I see you.

He’s only 9 bless him. I so need to see him more.

I’m not going to try and put all the blame on everyone but myself but I really am struggling with this one. If my Dad was a bit more up for it maybe it’d work. Maybe not. Sure, I could make a bigger effort, and I know that. But when I do, it never quite works.
I set up an email address for my brother so we can email each other beings as my Dad never remembers to call. My brother was really excited, but my only guess is that my Dad never taught him how to do it. Cos I never got one email. And just now, I asked what my brother was doing on Saturday, cos it’s my weekend off work. And when I explained why, he became busy.
Just like when I asked to take him bowling, and got told he hates it. Yet when I talk to him he says he wishes he could go.

Rant over. And applause to you if you actuallllllly read that.

My brother lives with my Dad and his wife and I never really see them all that much anymore.

I love my brother, more than anything. He used to cry when I had to go home. And although I’m happy he doesn’t now, it makes me sad. I’ve missed out on so much by not making the effort and I feel like I’ve messed up. Completely.

Because of the nature of this website and how it is for goals that are to be accomplished, I was a little unsure of how to calculate my progress in this goal. So I haven’t finished being a good big sister, but since my little sister told me I am her best friend yesterday, I felt that I can move on from this goal and I will now stick to more concrete goals that are clearly defined and can actually be completed.