by the looks of it no one comes on this forum very much – but i just need to get this out there
my parents have been fighting for as long as i can remember - constantly throughout my childhood. im 16 now and just a few months ago i refused to let my mom throw my dad out of the house. i guess i ve kinda changed since then. im never emotional any more - even less so than my older sister who is usually the one to ust tell everyone to fuck off and mind their own business. but now shes crying to my dad about what a bitch ive been the past months to her and i hear every word theyre saying. i treat her the same way she treats me. i just dont have the energy anymore to be the better person.
i feel disconnected from my friends- all of them are in arguments and im grounded for the rest of the week for absolutely no reason – well my mom and dad got in a huge fight this weekend for letting me and my older sister go out friday night when we were supposedly grounded. its insignificant stuff they fight about and i ve just stopped caring.
sure, if my mom tries to throw my dad out again i’ll stop her but in between i just dont care anymore.
my OLDER sister (18) is now telling my dad how inconsiderate it was of my to stick my fork in a cake without cutting myself a slice. ITS A FUCKING CAKE. my family just doesnt understand that we get along accept for the small, tiny, minute, INSIGNIFICANT details that tear us apart.
im tired of trying. i dont even sleep in my own room anymore because i feel so confined. i sleep downstairs on the living room couch but now i cant go to bed cause thats where my sister and dad are arguing.
i know no one is probably going to read this but i just needed to put it out there…