set aside 3 hours/day for my own work

Did it today & yesterday!!! Finished scans of trees & doing more shadow drawings. Off now to an exhibition in Copa of a Venezuelan.

Well at least doing 1 1/2 hours on this. Got depressed & tired & worn out because drank 2 1/2 drinks & smoked 2 cigarettes last night. Amazing how that influences me to go back to bad habits instead of plugging away.

Yippee! Today working on plant drawing & really enjoying the colors etc that I put together. I love doing drawings & working with colors. Now I understand why I get sad when I don’t do it. Spoke to Joe too who voiced his concern that I start w/styles & then bag them & saying that I need to just stick with what I’m doing now. I’m going to really make an effort this month to do the 3hrs/day.

Spent time scanning sketches of trees today so that I can send images off. Cleaned my house too.

Finally started again today to work on art taking out all drawings & realizing that I have to create a better work rythm. I get sad when I don’t work. Too much yakking rather than doing.I’ve been feeling blocked & only recently have let up that feeling to take more charge of my life.

“There is a vitality, a life-force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.”
- Martha Graham

Did about 3 hours yesterday doing watercolors in the countryside. Today I’m sick. Not sure what to do.

Well,
Haven’t done perfectly recently BUT:
Installed painting bars (cimaises) at home so that I can put up paintings on my walls as I work on them. NO MORE WORK lying on the floor earning dust.
Also have started 3 new large drawings & yesterday went out & purchase OIL PAINTS!!! I’m excited to try some tonight.
Even though I might not get the whole hour, I’m gonna go for 30 mins min! :)
It made me angry & frustrated not doing this goal.

A leaning sadness for the past few days because I missed doing my work & feeling fulfilled: Pleasure pure pleasure to do my work again.
This thing of putting my work on the back burner to do money work makes me an unhappy and angry person – better to go the pleasure route.
PLEASURE is what reaps results.

June 16: Did 2 hours arranging apt & art materials taking pictures of artwork & Ipo came to take photos.

today yes 8am – 10am so 1 hour short. Took photos of works for upcoming show then realized that I ought to have a pro take them so am waiting for the pro to contact me later on today.
Tomorrow will get up early to do this.