get my own place

Zack and I have finally found a good sized apartment for our little family to live in. :] It’s fairly cheap for the size and well worth it. We both fell in love when we saw it, so we signed the lease two days ago!!! I’m so excited! I want to move in right now! Haha, but w have to wait till June 26, then it’s game on! :] :] :]

I received my apartment assignment last week and I’m quite excited about it.

I was going to go in and take my furniture off of layaway, but I decided to keep it on until my credit card bill cycles so my balance is at zero and I can see if I really want to get my living room furniture from the same place so I can order it all at once.

... two days this week. It is too premature. My money situation hasn’t worked out the way it was supposed to.

If James won’t move in with me unless it’s super convenient for him, then why would I trust his desire to move in with me? Since I discovered this, since I was humiliated in front of his friends… I am taking my time moving out.

I don’t exactly know what to think about all this. But in getting my own place, I may be – for the first time in my life – knowingly taking a risk that I love someone more than he loves me. And NOT leaving him.

I appreciate this lesson, though. In fact, I am un-learning the complete submissiveness I was taught in my past marriage. He is helping me to speak up for myself. I think that I have pulled back enough to deal with this.

This entry may seem like it belongs in another place, but it is all about making life decisions and moving decisions.

... two days this week. It is too premature. My money situation hasn’t worked out the way it was supposed to.

If James won’t move in with me unless it’s super convenient for him, then why would I trust his desire to move in with me? Since I discovered this, since I was humiliated in front of his friends… I am taking my time moving out.

I don’t exactly know what to think about all this. But in getting my own place, I may be – for the first time in my life – knowingly taking a risk that I love someone more than he loves me. And NOT leaving him.

I appreciate this lesson, though. In fact, I am un-learning the complete submissiveness I was taught in my past marriage. He is helping me to speak up for myself. I think that I have pulled back enough to deal with this.

This entry may seem like it belongs in another place, but it is all about making life decisions and moving decisions.

... two days this week. It is too premature. My money situation hasn’t worked out the way it was supposed to.

If James won’t move in with me unless it’s super convenient for him, then why would I trust his desire to move in with me? Since I discovered this, since I was humiliated in front of his friends… I am taking my time moving out.

I don’t exactly know what to think about all this. But in getting my own place, I may be – for the first time in my life – knowingly taking a risk that I love someone more than he loves me. And NOT leaving him.

I appreciate this lesson, though. In fact, I am un-learning the complete submissiveness I was taught in my past marriage. He is helping me to speak up for myself. I think that I have pulled back enough to deal with this.

This entry may seem like it belongs in another place, but it is all about making life decisions and moving decisions.

I don’t know about what the apartment. I kind of haven’t pressed the issue because I think I’d like to go with the larger apartment. I figure since they are for immediate move in and I’ve built a pretty strong relationship with the leasing agent already that I can possibly talk to her about holding an apartment for a little longer since I want to move around the first.

I put furniture on layaway yesterday. Bedframe, mattress, dining room table and night stand. I’m not sold on living room furniture, but it’s cool because I can always borrow stuff until I get something of my own.

I emailed 4-5 people about properties in Ferndale, today. Three bedroom rentals. With yards and porches… and hardwood floors!

I can’t wait to be independent, again!

My absolute “be moved out” goal date is July 1.

I put my deposit down, but I’m on the waiting list.

I’m just waiting on whoever is ahead of me to either get a co-signer or not, so I can have the apartment or know where I stand.

My supervisor has approved overtime, so this will allow me to move out a lot sooner.

May rent out friend’s place for a year!!