become a stay-at-home mom

I think being a “stay at home mom!” is the BEST “job” in the world.

I have been a stay at home mom since the birth of my oldest daughter in 2001. I have loved the time that I have gotten to spean with all three of my kids, to help them learn & grow, and to nurture them like only a mother can.

Right now the finances are bad, so I am currently looking for a job outside the home, however, I do beleive that being a SAHM is a wonderful opportunity and is great for motehr and child/dren. I reccomend it.

Well, I’m a web designer at my day job and I’ve been at that job for about 4 years. I am tired of designing stuff for other people because it drains my creativity, for one thing. Also, I want to be a stay at home mom once I finally do manage to get pregnant and have a baby.

I really want to be there to support my child’s development. I plan on breastfeeding, after that feeding him/her only organic food, much of which I will make myself, using cloth diapers, etc. I want to read to him/her all the time and miss as few of the milestones as possible. The most important thing I can do in this world is be a wonderful parent… that is what I want more than anything else.

So I decided I would do Mary Kay so I could have an income but work from home… we can’t afford to be a one-income family, unfortunately. I know a lot of women who have been incredibly successful at Mary Kay. I’d like to be a sales director before my child is born.

The only problem? In the past, I have lacked self-discipline. Seriously, I am bad at time management and kind of lazy. I have ambition in spades, am good at planning and goal setting and have tons of great ideas, but I fail to implement them… and when I would get afraid about something, I would just shut down and hide from the world. Obviously this is less than productive.

I just tell myself that that was the OLD me. God is helping me become the NEW me. The new me:

-Is ambitious, motivated and dependable
-Sets realistic goals and follows through
-Makes plans and adapts them to situations instead of giving up when things change
-When afraid, knows that it is time to work all the harder to get results because that’s the only thing that can banish the fear.

I am going to make this my mantra every morning. I am going to write it on a piece of paper and put it in my purse and look at it whenever I start to blow something off or play when I should be working. I am going to pray to God to help me become this new me bit by bit, a little more every day. I know that a successful businesswoman is locked somewhere inside me, waiting to be let out.

That being said, my boss and I had a talk last week. I have been working only 20 hours or less per week, and he really needs somebody full-time. He also is my friend and knows that I want to be a stay-at-home mom. So he and I made a plan… a plan that is kind of scary. OK, it’s really scary. He will hire someone and have them start at the beginning of July, and by then I will have to have my Mary Kay business replacing my current income.

To do this, I need to have $600 in sales per week and at least 5 team members. So that’s my goal—be a team leader with 5 team leaders and average $600 in sales per week by the end of June. (I currently average probably $70 in sales and have no team members, though I have a couple of good prospects).

I HAVE to do this, because we won ‘t be able to pay our bills unless I am successful. It’s a tremendous amount of pressure, but I believe in myself. I believe in the new me that I am becoming. I am not alone… I know that God, my family and my Mary Kay sisters will help me.

I’m still afraid, but I refuse to let it paralyze me. This is the key to achieving my dream of being a stay at home mom, which is the biggest and best dream that I have ever had (yes, bigger than being a scientist or a rock star, both of which I wanted to do at one time).