i’ve come to the realization that i no longer want to “deal” with stress but create a more balanced, simple & peaceful life style. i’ve spent quite a bit of time lately meditating, appreciating, being thankful & absorbing all the things i love around me. no job or career is worth compromising my inner peace, happiness, hopes, passions & desired dreams…

sometimes when you get a bit lost & experience something a bit darker then intended it helps you appreciate the light even more as it comes your way & warms you all over…

i meditate on a few things along the way…

❀ This is what we call love. When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there’s no need at all to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you…Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

❀ When we are mindful, deeply in touch with the present moment, our understanding of what is going on deepens, and we begin to be filled with acceptance, joy, peace and love…Thich Nhat Hanh

❀ A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write, if he be at peace with himself. What a man can be, he must be…Abraham Maslow

❀ And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare
feet and the winds long to play with your hair…Kahlil Gibran

❀ I prefer to be a dreamer among the humblest, with visions to be realized, than lord among those without dreams and desires…Kahlil Gibran

❀ If you don’t love yourself, you cannot love others. You will not be able to love others. If you have no compassion for yourself then you are not able of developing compassion for others…Dalai Lama

❀ My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness…Dalai Lama

❀ If you show patience, I’ll rid you of this virtue. If you fall asleep, I’ll rub the sleep from your eyes. If you become a mountain, I’ll melt you in fire. And if you become an ocean, I’ll drink all your water…by Rumi

❀ “The tree which moves some to tears of joy is in the eyes of others only a green thing that stands in the way. Some see nature all ridicule and deformity… and some scarce see nature at all. But to the eyes of the man of imagination, nature is imagination itself.”…William Blake

i’m still learning how to walk this life with what dwells & grows in my heart. what dwells in my heart? i’m still peeling back the many layers revealing & understanding what stirs. what has surfaced is hope, faith, belief, giving back, showing a immense amount of love, kindness, compassion & forgiveness. a faithful practice of letting go of my ego, being sincere in all that i do & embracing the silence…

remembering to let my music out rather then letting it sit dormant. by music i mean what we truly love & what sits close to us, our gift…we all have a gift that makes us special, it stirs inside us & makes us truly unique. it’s our soulful tattoo that tells us our treasures…

on my continued path is simply to become a better version of myself & be inspired by these beautiful poetic thoughts that are at my finger tips…♥

8 months ago

one way to manage with the immense amount of chaos & the ball of stress in your life is to just walk away from it altogether & create a non-stressful environment for yourself…:)

last monday i quit my job & straight like an arrow i knew it was time…i didn’t want to have my mind burn away from me & watch myself disappear into the ground…

my plan…as i watch the clock tick away my time i’m breathing in & out the sweetness of freedom, appreciating the love & beauty in my life…

many things are floating & dancing through my mind right now. continually nuturing my spirit & letting it rest for a spell as i enjoy the silence that surrounds me. i try to ignore the distress calls & texts from all those who use to depend on me on a daily basis & explain that it’s not my gig anymore to manage…

i’m not entirely sure what’s next on my canvas of life but i do know that embracing the root of hope & it flowing into the tree of faith will teach me rich & valuable things about myself…

one way of finding out what you want to do is experiencing & breathing in what you don’t want to do. the reality of drowning & having those around you describing the water as you go under but when you are finally rescued by the grace of god, the universe, yourself or maybe the combination of all three…you come to some very strong realizations that you can not ignore…

we all have choices each & every day as we open our eyes at morning light. my quest is happiness as i open mine…

9 months ago

10 months ago

the awesome summer weather we’ve been having lately has inspired me to get out there & do some of my favorite hikes in my area…:) nothing beats stress like an good old fashion hike up a mountain…:)

11 months ago

life & work are crashing down around me right now & the stress levels are taking a toll on me…

number one…my landlords are selling the house i live in & i have to find another place to live in less then 2 months…everyday the realtor phones or leaves messages that there’s a showing. she doesn’t give me that much notice at all. this morning she calls at 8:30 am & tells me that someone is coming in an hour. i’ve had a very long week with working 4 double shifts in a row & i worked really late last night. i was literally scrambling this morning to get ready & clean up a bit before leaving my apartment. then she sends another message by text telling me that there’s another showing at 1 pm tomorrow. then an hour later sends me another text telling me there’s another one at 9 am. i’m sure i’m not going to get any time to myself this weekend at all with all these showings. my days off are valuable to me & i’m feeling that this realtor is really being annoying…:/

she always comes in before the appointments & puts away any personal items i have. things like magazines, shoes, books & anything personal that’s out. i’m having a hard time finding some of my personal items when i return home. i just think it’s kind of rude to put away things that are not yours. for example grooming products & makeup on the counter in the bathroom. she’ll throw them all in a bag & put them in my closet or under the sink. i have a few throw rugs in the kitchen because the floor is cold in the morning & slippery. so after a showing i’ve noticed she’ll roll them up & hide them in the washing machine or in a closet. i just think it’s not right to mess with another person’s personal stuff especially in their own home. it would be different if she would of asked me to put them away instead of hiding all my stuff everywhere around the house so i end up playing a nice scavenger hunt game when i return home…:/

number two…i really hate my job & i would just love to quit. the owners are really awful people to work for & they treat the staff really badly. it’s such a toxic environment & i’m afraid i just can’t take it anymore. i’m at the end of my rope. i’ve been applying like crazy for other positions so i can leave this crazy job…

between the house being sold, the crazy annoying realtor, trying to find another place to live, the pressures at work i’m not sure how much more i can take…then today one of my star employees gave me his notice over the phone…& who can blame him. if i had the chance for something better i would jump ship too…

i’m just not in a very good place right now…

14 months ago

today was not a good day at all…:/

14 months ago

always calms the nerves after a long day at the office…

we are so lucky to have such beautiful evening skies…

i love pleasant summer evenings & a stroll along the bow river…

23 months ago

recently i started my morning meditation sessions again…:) this has always helped me to deal with my stress levels in the past…

i just started out with 10 minutes for now…& will gradually add 5 minutes as needed…:)

23 months ago