become semi-famous

I have one website ranked 3 and 2 ranked 2 on google, however I know these can fluctuate and may not represent much of anything. I’ve had theoretically 3000 to 4000 views to these three pages over the last eight years or so (only one site existing before 2006), however I’m concerned that there’s no product to market, and besides my goal of selling a book doesn’t depend directly on website visitors.

Having a more agreeable personality would be another task altogether.

This goal is simply written too large to be subtly measured, or weighed rationally. I need more precise goals to get anywhere. Sometimes a poet or author is obscure even in success by some standard (poets in particular rarely take the place of a public personality, although I’ve made the point recently of considering poets before anyone famous. This may be dubious on all sides, a few names withstanding).

what precisely society would value in me.

This isn’t to say there is nothing (and it isn’t to say there is nothing)

Patience is a virtue, then again there is nothing in a life that does not even drift…

If I knew how to approach people in such a way where they saw what I see in myself, maybe I could find a means to promote those things, which even independent of personality may effect people in a way that is more than temporary.

For example, soon I’m planning to read in New York, which is a bit beyond my normal scope of interest, but has become perhaps key in establishing a larger idea of myself and my potential.

To abandon this goal would be to abandon the intention of this goal. Saying practicality is meant solely to promote the value of my artwork, cartoons, poetics, philosophy would be a misleading, however the idea of becoming minor-career oriented at this point of my life seems self-defeating, even if financially more prospective.

Ultimately realization of my key interests is a matter of making impressions on others in the same way I make impressions on myself. That it is simply a matter of personal attrition against all resistance is not very encouraging or heroic.

is suffering from limited networking and the obscurity of opportunity.

I’m considering semi-retiring it in favor of more specific career or qol goals.

Currently I continue to seek out a market for a book or a means of moving towards a life that is more strictly regulated, that would provide for a productive schedule.

Now and then I look down on myself for having major plans and limited means.

There are things I can do in theory, yet practical existence seems always to contradict my deepest enthusiasm. Perhaps I’ve come to a road where life must become fantastic or lose its magic. I wouldn’t say there is always much there. Scrawlings on the wall versus dances in the ether; different zones, different sureties. Not to be taught too many lessons.

I may have chosen a different title if this goal did not already exist.

My idealistic yearnings have been heightened lately due to a reporter’s consideration of my book project, The Motist, and a new ‘volitional energy’ concept I’ve been considering with some seriousness.

It could be that the reporter is unable (his computer game reviews pseudonym was Cain), however as far as appearances go he has been fairly responsive and congenial when it comes to considering the material I have submitted to him, something he encouraged himself.

Having an ‘in’ in the world of publishing is almost too much to hope. Once again I’m at a point where my income is from a part-time job. I begin to wonder if I need other baskets before any eggs will hatch (or perhaps that isn’t the point…) mixed metaphors… The idea that art or schooling could lead to greater merit doesn’t make much sense just now, as though money thrown into art school or further education were nominative, and not essentially a matter of my life (Southern CT doesn’t even teach rhetoric, so the idea of student-as-person is becoming a joke).

of whether this entry is one large, extended overcompensation, as opposed to genuine merits to be found here, particularly

1. focusing attention on how I need to focus attention, in order not to misrepresent myself

2. a means of selling books that have merit in themselves (in the context of life as I know it)

3. a means of expanding my social awareness, lately a claustrophhobia due to seemingly basic modal limits in my engagements with others, esp. speaking with strangers in a way which afterwards has import in my memory, without feeling that one or the other of us is a clown.

4. greater assurance about capacity for travel/move/having a life apart from parents.

5. confidence that it is my desert to make bold steps in defining life (again too often my notion of fame depends on a key break, which is close to the archetype, but in fact assumes too much about the inherent applicability of a given private life to a more public life, public life being an assumption which most likely means anything to me only out of the cumulation of many inflated notions of personality and application, a way in which in seeking consequence, I dwell on the surface, too hollow for integrity; I find reassurance that maybe this surface-consciousness is also a depth-consciousness).

the article is a credential, but its difficult to weigh its value so far, personally or professionally.

My websites may be found at:

http://www.nathancoppedge.com
http://www.impossiblemachine.com
http://www.geocities.com/drypress

and blogs at
http://motism.blogspot.com the subject of the article, and
http://360.yahoo.com/drypress

I’m not entirely sure that a Courant article will do it. However, popularity may easily spread via the article. Certainly the newspaper has an enormous circulation compared to previous venues, according to statistics.

I haven’t checked my web traffic yet for today, however I have a feeling I’d be in horror to have the same as usual. This makes me nervous.

I’ll just see how this goes.

10pm update, traffic not significant. No major upsurging.

A number of statements made it into a relatively large paper, the Hartford Courant, within the Technology section.

Its presented in a slightly slanty tone, but overall it seems like a fair representation of what I have put online.

I continue to seek a marketing venue for my book, the Motist Manifesto. Meanwhile I am waiting to see if interest is attracted via the article.

For the full article, seeMake a fine appearance in the Hartford Courant

is due out tomorrow. I’m a little antsy.

I need to make a goal to post more material in my Motism blog.

I don’t know if my sense of time is distorted one way or another, however I feel that I need to focus on my online commitments and any new opportunities that may be engendered.

as reported in my other goal, to Make a fine appearance in the Hartford Courant.

Blog Review, by Phil Hall, Nov. 1st edition of the Hartford Courant, features 3 blogs. The entire article is 950 words.

The date has been pushed from the 25th. I don’t know what to make of it. I feel like a fool. Revision: If there is no indicator that the article won’t run, at least I’m not being led on more than necessary.

Excerpts at my blog at http://motism.blogspot.com when I get a copy.