stop looking at porn

seems like the longest I have gone is 37 days without porn or m..that is hard to do but the lord helped me. today is A new day Im not gOING TO LOOK AT IT ANY MORE!!! got to quit THE BIBLE SAYS PRESENT YOUR BODY A LIVING SACRIFICE HOLY TO HIM…MAYBE THAT WILL DO IT …PLUS WHAT GIRL WOULD WANT A WANKER??? I guess its finaly time to MAN UP.

Sigh, I’ve been letting myself down in not watching porn. I vow from this day onwards 17 / 06 / 09 that I WILL stop looking at porn, and anything closely relevant to it.

When I feel the urge to watch porn, I’ll think about the good that not watching porn has done to me, or read the people’s comments on this site, or think about the impact it has done to my life, and i wouldn’t want to roll down that road again.

I’m going to try my best. No more porn for me.

I’ve just been through all the entries here, stating form the oldest one. Needless to say, it’s very encouraging. I’m in the University and have been struggled with the problem for almost five years now, since I was in high school. The most I’ve succeeded so far in abstaining is about a month.

Starting today, no matter what, I’m going to deal with this problem leaving no stone unturned. I’m resolute. Gonna attack it left, right and centre. Staring with meditation and yoga and whatever else to get a balanced mindset, I’m ready, but most importantly I’ll make sure to get back here to feel strong again, whenever I go weak.

I’m starting today, never to return to the sick world of porn. Good luck everyone and God bless you all!!

Competition might help me stop. I’m starting today 3/11/09. It is a bad habit that is not worth doing. Promotes the wrong thing, plus you are making money for the trash of the world.

I lasted half a month, but gave in when I let my defense down. Shits hard to beat. Fucking tired of it being so fucking easy to get a hold of it. Damn Internet. DONE WITH IT.

With myself, I basically have no will power of my own. Of what turned out a great day turned into disaster. I so hate myself right now… I’m serious. I will. Not. Look. At porn. If I fail then I might as well stay off the computer for the rest of my life, I swear on my life, I will not let you guys down. I mean it.

For a long time I haven’t looked at it, like 3 months. But just one day, I accidentally did, and that changed everything.

Now I don’t really search for porn, I honestly always trip on it, then a few days pass and I really want to look at the same site (softcore mostly) so I do.

Today I had a serious urge doing schoolwork, of course I just didn’t do anything, and about 10 minutes passed and the feeling went away.

I’d say I’m almost free of porn, but looking at girls in underware or bra by accident doesn’t make me a addict.

Soon…. I will stop.

tho it ws diff this time.. i cudnt look at stff i used to.. they looked disgusting.. i looked at the most unconventional.. like lesbos in space :P..

also, if u wake up til late in da night.. u r most likely to watch porn i tink.. so sleep early!

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its been new year a week ago.. i dun watch porn that much… i find it unreal.. but yeah i do.. i dun really feel any urge to watch porno.. i simply open a new tab enter this address and bang…

so now instead.. ive to form this new different hobby.. either i should have to connect my old urge to something new and different.. like making a phone call.. or coming over here and writing an entry…

also, i want a complete log of all such events when i did watch porno…

I’ve been subconsciously doing this one, but not actively, so I’m going to promise myself that from now on I’ll make sure to actively pursue this one.

So with luck I can not only temporarily stop, but change my attitude toward it as well, which is the root of the problem, as far as I can see.

Please wish me luck, and say a small muttered prayer if you’re reading this.

I know this one is going to be hard. I know it.

But I suppose the first step is to define for myself what I will consider ‘pornographic material’.

I will first burn that into my mind, and so I know that anytime I cross that boundary, I am consciously, and deliberately choosing to fail at this Thing.

So: I’ll define pornography as any image that I look at with the intention of deriving sexual pleasure from it.

Why I chose this definition is because since I’m not a little kid anymore, random, unintentionally seen softcore pron throughout the day, (TV, Ads on Internet, etc) do not affect me. It seems that porn is something I have to deliberately choose to think of as porn, and enjoy.

Therefore, from now on, I will avoid anything I consciously want to use as a sexual stimulus.

There. First step done. I’ve defined and clarified my problem. ^_