manifest my dreams & goals

I know I can do this… I am pretty sure I always have been able to. Let me tell you a story. When I was in college I was sitting on the couch watching the news with my mom. And there was a consumer report story about credit or something. I leaned over and hit my mom on the arm and said serious as anything “one day I am going to work for him”. In less that a year I am working at the company that the man on the news is a VP at. Plus – I had the chance to tell him that story.

But that was then. I need to reorganize, prioritize and accomplish (my old mantra). And find out what I need NOW. I think this is easier to do with a pen then a PC, but thats just me.

has grown so much!!! she’s our tri-colored terror & so much joy! i adore her just as much as my other kitties & she loves us back so sweetly…she’s such a happy little one!! our little clown lol
my biggest worries with her are: the curtains & the tub
the curtains are replaceable spell-check? i’m more concerned about her penchant for swinging from them (YIKES!) i’m worried the rod will pull out of the frame, come crashing into the window & we’ll come home to broken glass & injured kitties…i do NOT want that! aside from taking the curtains down, i don’t know what else to do…any ideas would be appreciated…no hitting of the kitties, no squirt bottles either

the second part is the tub…we have a 4ft deep claw foot tub…yup, no traction there! litte A-Bomb likes towalk along the rim of the tub & slid into the tub this morning. i’m worried about her slipping & getting hurt or sliding into it & not being able to get out all day (until we get home from work)
the litter boxes are in the bathroom so closing that room off is not an option…not much seems to faze her…double-sided tape doesn’t stop her from getting on my desk & i don’t want my skin ripped off by it getting out of the shower…any other ideas?

came to me in many dreams…either with my beloved Biddie or sitting happily in a chair with sweet Gracie…then i saw her on petfinder.com
she comes home on Friday!!!

and picture it in the present not in the future or it willl always remain in the future & won’t be in the present

i’d say i’m doing this! not quite the path i pictured but it’s getting me there!

i need to decide exactly what it is i want…
generalities are all fine well & good for conversation but you need specifics for good manifestation

the other night, Fela started clawing the headboard (again) from under the bed…he wanted to play & didn’t want us to be sleeping i guess…i got up & started channel surfing around 1:30/2AM…yeah, there isn’t a whole lot on aside from infomercials (some of them are very entertaining & funny)...but, after a while, on PBS i saw this guy. Wayne Dyer (i think) & he was talking about getting inspired. One of the things he said really struck a cord deep within me. He said “My desire is aligned with my soul and it’s on it’s way” or something pretty damn close to that
it got me thinking…i know what i want but at the same time i question whether it’s aligned with my soul or not…which brings me to the point of: if i question it’s alignment, then it’s probably not aligned, right?
so that’s started me on yet another path of deep thought & self-examination & analyzation…before i can manifest anything, i need to figure out what the heck i truly need & not just what i want. then i have to look at it & ask myself how realistic is this? is this truly something i can achieve? or is this something that i’ll get to a certain point & say “okay, i can do this” & then just not have interest anymore?
too many things i’ve done have ended up that way & that’s something i need to stop. i need to follow through to the end…no more giving up on myself & my destiny

my nightmares & fears have already manifested, why shouldn’t i manifest what i want?
since 1990 i was terrified i’d be in a bad accident…it happened in 1999
i warned my mother to tell my sister to call her dr if she got a headache because i had a feeling something was going to happen to my sister & her unborn baby…she didn’t pass the message…my sister had to give birth to a baby knowing he was already gone & we almost lost her too
when i was 15 i knew i wouldn’t be able to have kids…no reason for knowing this, just another one of my feelings…that was confirmed when i was 27 & diagnosed with primary ovarian failure (AKA premature menopause)
i had too many times when i would be cuddling my darling kitty, & cry because i knew that she wouldn’t be with us for too much longer…we had to let her go to Rainbow Bridge May 27, 2006…
if those fears & mightmares have come true whenever i’ve had those feelings, why haven’t my dreams & goals? why don’t i get the same feelings on them? did i disconnect with myself somewhere along the way?
i must change this pattern & not allow the negative to happen to me anymore…only the positive…
i’ve had too many bad things happen to me…too often, things happen in my life that affect me directly that are completely out of my control…
it’s my turn now to control my life & what happens to me!
noone can negatively affect my life anymore!!! i do NOT allow it!