texanangel follow the sunā„
it’s tough when you look at a man who used to be your hero and are disgusted. yeah, he’s fucked up. i have to, but in no way to the magnitude that he has. when i was a few years younger, i felt obligated to stay by his side because it seemed like everyone else had abandoned him. and it may be selfish, as i tend to be, but now i realize that all of that weight is not on me. i can’t be there and force hime to be the man i want him to be. i have begged and pleaded, called him everyday, and not spoken to him for months. i know that i have to find the stregnth to let go of all of the hurt he has caused me and the rest of my family. he needs help, but it’s not my job to give it to him. it is, however my job to be understanding and to try to bring back what we had so long ago.
