vent random thoughts

TORN

i don’t know what to do… should i choose the relationship with a person who seems to love me with all his heart, or choose the friendship with someone who only seems to want me when it suits him

it seems like an easy pick… but i really don’t know what to do…

• loves me (or so he says)
• adores me
• has proven he can take my shit, over and over again
• unstable… not sure if he can take care of me in the long run
• my family is not happy with him

• apparently cares for me
• gives me the attention i really want
• easily annoyed with me when i choose to go into solitude
• easily distracted with stupid things
• my family is not happy with him either

help? anyone???

i was driving home 2 nights ago and i sped through a speeding camera :(

FARK!

it ruined my good day… i really should be more careful!

i just realized…

i want too many things, but am not greatful for alot of things

i need to learn to appreciate what i already have before anything else good happens to me

stupid ex-boyf, ruined a relatively good day!

FFS!

the feeling of nothingness is back again :(

i don’t know why i feel so sad today, i didn’t say anything that wasn’t true, i actually think for the first time i said what i had to say to get this mess straighten out…

then why do i feel like i’m the one who’s done wrong?

the weekend was a big alcoholic blurr… wtf happened… it all happened so fast… and so much happened i can’t even put my head around everything

i can’t wait to leave… 44days seems to long… i want to leave now… i just need to get away…

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.
Laurence J. Peter

oh for fucks sake did she really have to get a facebook? what is she gonna do flirt with everyone there seeing she’s gone through all her 1BILLION myspace followers

she annoys me… why… cos she’s a fucking flirt, which is fine really, but the fact that she plays the innocent one annoys the FUCK out of me

ARGH

im not gonna get the midget get to me… IM NOT!

oh for fucks sake… why did you have to do that for? everything was going ok… we talked… yeah ok… but did you really think i cared about all the random girls you talked to and girls who “tried” to pick you up… get over yourself!

fuck you’re an inconsiderate prick!!!

To err is human, but to forgive is divine.