My cousin is getting married around the end of October and so she has asked that we all get together this weekend at David’s Bridal to look at bridesmaid gowns. I have to admit that I haven’t been looking forward to spending the money on a dress. I’m broke and it’s all I can do to pay my bills now as it is.
And now I feel terrible because I’m not thinking of her, I’m only thinking of me. I finally realized today that all I have done is complain and make excuses about how I haven’t the money to purchase a dress. I feel awful because then I got to thinking that if this was my wedding, I wouldn’t want to hear that from all my bridesmaids. How terrible she must feel that everyone is moaning and groaning and I’m no better!
I vow today to pick out a beautiful dress and who cares that I have to spend a whopping $130 to look amazing for one night. I know it will be worth every penny when I’m all dressed up, feeling like a princess and then being able to watch my cousin say I do. And hey, I could probably even make a little money back off of it if I sell it after the wedding.
I just need to learn to be a better servant to others. I know that it isn’t about me, EVER, but I have a way of always making it about me; Most people do.
God I just ask that you will teach me what it means to truly put others before myself and to realize that what I want doesn’t matter compared to You. Show me how to give when I don’t think I have anything to give. Strip me of my selfishness and crown me with a heart that pours out your grace and kindness. Amen.
