Go to therapy

Went to a CBT therapist a couple of weeks ago. Didn’t really have a proper session, just did some tests on depression, anxiety and personality.

Got the results yesterday and, as it turns out, I do have depression and the source of it is that I perceive myself the wrong way, according to her that has to be changed, and I’ll be going there weekly for six months.

Will start it tomorrow with one of her assistants because she has way too many patients and doesn’t have the time to treat me now. Let’s see how it goes, I’ll mark this as done afterwards.

EDIT: Went there but didn’t have a session, done another test instead, another personality one, hopefully I’ll start the real thing next week

i tried everything, but nothing seems to be working. i think i need to go to therapy at least try it maybe i would feel better. but the thing is i cant afford it, so i’m postponing this goal for an other year, or at least until i will be able to afford it.

I went to my first session today after the evaluation. We set of a plan of action for the weeks coming. I am going to try and not count calories a few days a week, and decrease exercise slightly and see how I feel. It makes me nervous and uncomfortable to do this, but I can’t keep living this way!

That’s what I need right now…otherwise i’ll get crazy.
I’m tired of suffering over small things, it must be a problem I have inside me, i don’t know. I just need to go back to therapy.
I just have an appointment on the 18th of July !!!

There’s only a few therapists in my town, and most of them, for lack of a better word, suck big time.
The only fairly decent one is booked. I’m currently on the waiting list.

I have tried going to therapy, but I just can’t bring myself to talk to someone I don’t even trust. I know there is the whole “doctor-patient confidentiality” thing…but I just KNOW that there is no way therapists bring their patient’s secrets to the grave. They probably discuss all of the wackos they talk to daily at the fucking dinner table.

Whatever. I’ll stick to confiding in my mother.

I love my parents, i really do, except they think their daughter is a happy go lucky girl who doesn’t know too much about “the real world.” How am i supposed to ask for therapy when they think this? the truth is i am very depressed and lately have been cutting every day. i think about suicide a lot and I’m not even 13 yet.
i know i really need a good adolescent therapist (i mean a therapist that specializes in youth) but I have no friggin idea how to ask for one.

1) Why not?
2) So to stop using my friends for counseling
3) To analyze this issue: The only two people on earth think I’m a bad person are my ex-wife and (consequently) me. Time to get over it.

She gets stuff I don’t think I put out, but she intuits. I read to her from my morning pages at my last session and found myself in tears at what I had written.

She was so there with me….

I am so glad I chose to go to her, to not let that one not-so-great therapist keep me from continuing to try.

My first therapy session is a week from today. I’m kind of nervous. I don’t really know what to expect.