stop being so afraid

I was kinda afraid to join PTA again because I was very hurt some years ago. But I know I have to change for my boy and myself.

It’s difficult once you’re hurt so hard.

I don’t want to be scared of anything anymore. This includes myself.

I need to be open to people, stop being affraid to talk, because success its not a friend of fear, and i have a lot to do in life. Improve selfsteem. And not be ashamed of showing who am i. Gotta think positive.

Everything else will follow from this I think. It’s funny in an odd and scary way how a few bumps in life can rob you of your confidence and therefore your ability to continue to grow and LIVE. But, only as long as you let it. Time is up for fear and regret. Time to live. Now…

So this is getting parked as well. Maybe after I get school under control I can work on this.

Lots!
-Heights
-needles
-Death
-the unknown
-Drowning

i was afraid to step in the ring and spar w/ my sifu and when i say spar i mean full contact spring b/c this 130lb asian man can kick me 15 feet away but he told me that if ur not afraid to fight me then ur not afraid to fight a mugger on the street so u hve to look @ ur fears this way the worst it can do to u is is hurt u it can’t kill u so u might as well try it anyways cause it is better to live life knowing u tryed it ounce then to live life wondering what could hve been

I attended a meeting with tons of people I don’t know and I wasn’t nervous the entire time! I am often good about meeting new people but I usually have moments of nervousness. This time I didn’t have any. It was fun and it was nice to feel comfortable just being me the entire time.

It reduces the fear. I need to find another job at work and I know what I want to do, so I just need to focus on the reward, and not the fear.

I do tend to react to fear more than I do to reward. Something left over from childhood? We do things that need to be done to avoid punishment rather than work for rewards?