Long term goal – not this year but hopefully next year or soon after! 10 months ago

Seoul Korea 16 months ago

So I went on a retreat again this weekend and it was so spiritually beneficial. This one didn’t have much alone time but had lots of spiritual direction which I really need right now in figuring out my purpose. Now is the time for being alone and contemplating lessons learned and going deeper… 23 months ago

So that retreat I took a while back was absolutely wonderful! I really enjoyed the peacefulness and the alone time with God. I had been on a young adult’s retreat a month or so before and though it had its merits I preferred the alone time I got this time round. Something of interest that happened on this retreat was a personal healing. I usually do not talk about such things with most people but none of you really know me so I guess it’s ok :) I was getting frequent eye infections which would clear up for maybe a week and then return and this happened like three times in a row, each time getting progressively worse. When I left for the retreat I was fine, but on the second day (which was Good Friday) it started coming back. I had a lot of time to pray that day and it proved very fruitful. I had an opportunity to pray before a relic of the True Cross and spent a holy hour meditating on the Passion of Christ. That night before bed, I felt my eye getting more painful and I was concerned it would interfere with my retreat. I went over to a crucifix in my room and prayed that if it was God’s will, my eye would be healed. I kissed the crucifix and touched it to my eye. I immediately felt a cooling sensation in my eye and when I touched it I realized I had been healed. I fell to my knees in amazement, thanking God and then went to sleep with a very grateful and happy heart. This infection which had been recurring on a weekly basis has never come back since! This sort of thing does not happen to me often but only as of recent. I went several years with a lot of health issues for being such a young person. But it seems that now I am entering into a time of healing and I am just so grateful. I don’t know the meaning of all this because I know lot’s of holy people that I look up to who continue to suffer and it makes me wonder, “why me?” All I can say is Praise Him for He has apparently had mercy on my weakness:) I see it as God knowing just how much suffering is good for a particular soul and besides, I am still just a baby in the spiritual life. Maybe my suffering has served its purpose for the time being and now there is something for me to do that requires better health… I guess we shall see… :) 23 months ago