Keep the great friends I have.

Hi, I have been having this recuring nightmare, of this girl that I never really met, but that I saw once along time ago. She was standing in my old house, and the house itself was burning. I was seeing everything in first person, and I was in the burning house with her. She kept staring at me. This stair was of anger, like I had started this fire, and that I had cause her this great pain. Then I would hear what sounded like the world screaming in pain. Like everyone was burning not just me and her. Tonight, I confided in my friend A about the dream, not really sure how we got on the topic, but we did. We had a long talk about it, in which I revesited this dream multiple time. And tonight, I figured out what I was supposed to do, but more importantly I figured out what the dream was telling me. You see I hate my father. I have always hated him. I guess my anger towards him was the fire, and the little girl was the good inside of me and everyone that I cared about. When I figured out how to kill the flames, she smiled, it was the most beautiful smile, like the world was smiling like there was no pain anymore, I figured out that my anger was going to make me like him (my father). That is my greatest fear. So the dream was telling me to let go of my anger (which is easyer said than done) but now I have insintive. If I dont let go, I will become like him. The thing I fear the most will become true, if I dont let go of the anger I have for him. And my friend A, helped me see that tonight, which was wonderful, because now I have gotten rid of one of my recuring nightmares. Just talking it out with A helped me discover what I was supposed to do. And now all I have to do is let go of my anger. That is the hard part.

Hi, I am still in contact with A, which is good, and ScubaSam, which is excellent. There are others that I need to conntact, but it has been so strange these last few days.

Hi, when I mentioned this there was one friend inparticular I was talking about. Her name stars with an A. And A has been one of the most influental and kind and wonderful friend I have ever had. And I hope we are still having hour long phone calls, and talking about everything under the sun until we are hundred.