be less materialistic

i’m obsessed with clothes, purses, shoes, and phones…anything people see on me! I feel that the things I have define me, and I want to be defined well. My 16th birthday is coming up and I just got into this fight with my mom about a GUESS bag that i HAVE to have. I expected to just recieve it automatically, no questions. The fact it was expensive made no difference to me.

Then I started looking online and i figured I can ask for something much cheaper and serve the same purpose as the other guess bag. I need to slowlyy solve this problem.

It doesn’t help that I’m the middle child and get insanely jealous that my siblings receive gifts constantly. It just makes me want more!

I am so materialistic. I have noticed that things are more important to me than people. I cam buy everything from jewelry and hairproducts to shoes and mobiles. I just want to buy something all the time, and it makes me happy. I want to stop this and start saving money. I spent 626 dollars in a week, and 5000 dollars in less than 2 months. I really have to stop this…

I realize it’s shallow and unimportant, but I’m totally obsessed with beautiful shoes, I love makeup and buying stuff makes me happy. I’m not sure how to overcome these feelings but I know I have to try.

Being unemployed makes this goal easier, but I want to be able to find happiness in other things so that when I do find a job I will not depend on material things again. I made my first step today. I threw away all useless magazines and advertisements that are laying around my apartment. I look through these magazines all the time, wishing I could buy this or that. It usually just ends in me being depressed. I don’t ever want ‘things’ to make me depressed. I want to find happiness in life, people, nature… not a manufactured object.

i dont judge people based on what they have/don’t have. and i wont like someone just cuz they have something nice. i will not use someone just cuz they have a nice car or i wont be someone’s friend because he/she has something designer. basically, my interest in materialistic goods has NOTHING to do with my relationships with others. it’s just something of my own, so dont think that im one of those girls in “mean girls”. i would much rather get gifts that are meaningful and thoughtful as opposed to expensive.

but i like buying myslefnice things. and it’s not like i show off what i have. i just feel happy when i have these materialistic goodies. i love louis vuitton. i dont even know why i started that phase. i really, really like it. it’s so overpriced, but i am so in love with it. momma gave me two purses and my aunt gave me a pocket organizer. i bought myself a wallet when i went to las vegas last year. i am currently in love with this lime green interior LV wallet – that rings up to be $545. my current wallet is only half of that price and i already felt bad. but i cant help it, i like it.

i am also currently shopping for a tiffany and co. necklace. was gonna get it over break but the tiff and co. at valley fair ran out of “v” necklaces.

i was planning to get a pair of seven for all mankind jeans at the end of the school year, but i know that i would rather get 5 pairs of jeans at pacsun/express/tilly’s as opposed to one pair of seven’s.

SO, my goal? no more designer anything. im a brokeass college student; i shouldnt even be LOOKING at this stuff. typically, if i was gonna buy one of these items, i end up saving up and getting only ONE designer item instead of several/many regular items. NOT EFFICIENT OR WISE. if i make big bucks in the future, i will definitely splurge on these items. but for now? NO MORE.

yeah, i’m a girl. but i know material possesions aren’t what REALLY matter. still, i can’t resist purses, shoes, jackets, dresses, etc. with a designer label. i have wasted so much money shopping at the priciest stores. and for what? i’m not sure. to look and feel good about myself obviously, but could i not find that for cheaper? i guess not. so that’s my goal in a sense, to feel good about myself WITHOUT feeling like i have to own every designer label in my closet.

We are starting to pack up the house to start moving to the loft. I am going to have a box for donations a box for garage sale & a box for keep stuff. As I am packing up each room of the house I will ask myself “Do you really need this?” If I cant live without it, it will go in the keep box…if I can, donations or garage sale. What better way to look at all your stuff & get rid of what you dont need than boxing up your entire house!
This should be pretty easy…well…getting rid of crap I dont need….not the boxing up my entire house part ;)

Hmm, I’m wondering how I’m going to do this.
It’s not that I but thát much stuff, because I usually stop and think about if I really need them or just want them.
But lately I’ve started to but more and more things. It’s such a waste of money. :\

I’m reading this book to help reset my mindset about material possessions, standards of living, and my relationship with money.

My material possessions dont define who I am. I just want to let everything go and just live.