Not let everything get to me.

Talked a few things out. It’s amazing how much better that can make me feel.

I have two young daughters and this makes me want to cry, or hit something.

A year ago I wouldn’t have even thought about posting this as a goal. It’s only within the last 8 months or so that I’ve noticed that it seems like everything gets to me. I used to be able to smile and shrug off just about anything. To make matters worse I’m not someone who gets upset quickly. You could walk up to me and tell me that I’m the biggest jackass that you’ve ever met and I would smile and thank you for your candor. You’d walk away thinking “well he took that well, too bad he’s such a jackass” and I’d be o.k. with it until I sorted through my emotions about an hour later. Of course it’s never anything as remotely straight forward as an insult though. It’s usually something that they didn’t even think about and by the time I realize that it bugs me its too late to talk about it. You might be able to go up to someone and tell them that what they said before hurt your feelings when you’re 5 years old but I feel a little uncomfortable doing it as an adult.

Last week I was speaking to someone and they said something to me that was either a joke, in which case it meant nothing, or serious, in which case it was their honest opinion. I found myself dwelling on it more and more as the day progressed and ended up letting it ruin my day. Not content with that, I told my wife about it and got upset when she shrugged it off and told me it wasn’t a big deal. I guess she was supposed to jump right on the crazy train with me and tell me what an awful person he was for saying it.

This is really not normal for me and I don’t like it.