get comfortable with phone conversations

Is it my imagination or is time suddenly whizzing right by? Because the last time I talked to someone on the phone was like a week and a half ago… I must be blacking out or something lol.

So I need to call someone again, but… I just have so much difficulty psyching up to actually call. I know the number. I know what to say sort of, just… I need encouragement. It’s silly. The phone’s right there. Beep, boop, bop, “hello?”

...Idk…

So I half-assedly kept my promise to call back. I did, and… sigh, it was awkward. But in all things considered, the least harmful thing in the world you can do to yourself is social damage. Or something like that. Anyways, yes it was an awkward conversation (or lack thereof) and I needed a kick in the butt to call.

This needs to get easier, like, soon. Lol.

I talked on the phone yesterday for probably 45 minutes with a friend of mine. The last time we spoke I said I would call him sometime, but in keeping with my phone uncomfortable-ness, I didn’t. He remembered. I felt so bad. So I promised him I’d call Saturday. Which I will.

Now I’m testing my calling skills. GULP

I guess the hardest thing now for me isn’t keeping the conversation going so much as actually calling. I don’t have “phone cojones” like many people, I guess. Before I go and call someone, I really have to focus on the situation, and it’s quite dorky really now that I write it. It’s just a phone call, geez!

The other day I had this brilliant idea. I would call everyone in my phone! And check to see if the numbers I have for them are still relevant. Then I checked my cell phone’s address book, and just cringed at the thought. Maybe I’ll make it a goal… :s

So in the past week I’ve had 2 phone conversations with friends. Which is absolutely unheard of for me! They’ve gone well. It’s so much different than texting. It’s quite entertaining, really.

The other day, when I talked about my returning a phone call, my friend and I had a good half-hour talk. It wasn’t about anything important, but it was good. Yay.

Haha, I have to return a message tomorrow. I’m hecka nervous about it. It’s really not that big of a thing, actually it could end up being, but anyways I’m kind of yeah… really nervous. I have to talk to someone I haven’t spoken to on the actual phone for… a few months now. It’s a bittersweet deal. Anyways, haha… gulp

Why do we say it like that, anyway? Shouldn’t it be her? Hmm, it just doesn’t sound right.

So I just got off the phone with a relative of mine. And suddenly, it hit me. I don’t have a problem with being comfortabe on the phone, I have a problem keeping the conversation flowing. Almost all of my calls are less than 3 minutes long. HAHA!

I have testosterphone! Look it up on urban dictionary sometime. How do I fix this! x_x

Haha, I’m horrible with phone calls. I hate calling people. Hate answering the phone. I will, but I just dread it. I am getting better, actually, but I usually don’t have a need to call someone if they’re online. It’s quite pathetic I know, but that’s how I roll. Anyways, I’m fixing to be a better phone conversationalist now.

i’m not even sure how i achieved this. i’m just really comfortable calling people now. awesome.

I’m changing this to a step-program. Man, I’m rockingly cool.