go to the temple more often

Will go to the temple at least once a week… Preferably on tuesday or Friday.

I want to make it a habit, to go to the temple at least once a week.

There is a time and a place for all things and there was a time that I went to the temple weekly and then monthly. But for the past several years, I’ve gone about once a year. I miss the peace and the serenity there. I would like to go at least once every other month. That’s a realistic start.

But I don’t want to be Bat Mitzvah-ed. I want to have the party, and I’m happy to do a Mitzvah project. But I would perfer to have my own religion. My own beliefs. A lot of stuff in the Torah makes no sense to me anymore, and I want to feel like I’m free to believe whatever. But I don’t want to lose the friendship with my Jewish friends and my Rabbi. I told my dad how I feel, and he said that when I turn 18, I can do whatever I want (with religion).

I go every week now, it’s easier in college when everyone’s younger.

Even though I dread going to temple, I want to start doing it more. My rabbi is so nice, and I feel bad when I don’t go. I go ever shabbat (Saturday morning) and Tuesdays, for classes. But I hate going on Friday nights because I’m always tired, and sometime’s its just so boring! I want to bring a book in. But my dad won’t let me!