stop being a serial dater

Ok … gonna say this once and only once (I hope).

Done being a serial dater. I hope never to date another woman (not that I don’t enjoy women jeje).

Mi Amor and I are talking more and more seriously about things like her quitting her job and moving to my site and our life together after my Peace Corps service ends.

She’s AWESOMEly cool and cute and fun and nice and I’m in love with her.

It’s not letting me have the option of wanting to do it again!

(big huge sigh)

I just don’t want to date anyone. But SOMEHOW I always end up “seeing” someone. I don’t know know why. I love to flirt, I love male company, but I don’t want anything serious and it’s not easy for me to tell people that. Or if I do they say it’s ok but later on someone always gets hurt or mad. What do I need to do? Lock myself up?

And P.S. I’m not really looking for any answers. If you have a nice little comment that’s appreciated but please no over-analyzing, look into yourself type of thing. I just needed to vent.

Ok, so I was just telling my friends in Lima how great my girlfriend is and how I think I might be in love.

Then I get back to Chiclayo and she fucks it all up in front of all my friends.

Stick a fork in me, I’m done.
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I don’t feel any satisfaction out of dating more than one person at a time. I don’t know what made me think it was going to be fun. But I feel like it’s time to pay closer attention to the people I am spending time with… one at a time, three date minimum rule.

So many men. So little time.

I just don’t want to settle- settle down, settle for less than I deserve. I LIKE my freedom. I love men but I seem to be happier by myself. And at least I’m upfront about it. I have my whole, “Well, I travel a lot but I will try to keep in touch” speech down pat.

People in general seem to be threatened by a woman who doesn’t want to settle down, that Doesn’t picture herself married and having children. And especially by a woman who dates more than most men. Society’s age old double standard.