fail

Several people from Edison to Trump have failed in big ways but were ultimately successful.

According to the world I have only failed in minor ways though these are major on a personal level.

It isn’t failure, so much, as the risk of failure. But I wouldn’t list “risk failure” because that’s risking, which allows for the possibility of success.

I want to put everything into an activity that cannot possibly succeed. This can accomplish two things I think are critically important in my life:

1. Learning to focus on the activity, on the moment, for its own sake – not on the outcome.
2. Allowing God, the universe, the greater truth around me [call it what you wish] to calculate my future, rather than presuming I can know absolutely and can make decisions on such absolute knowledge. In other words, I want to overcome my overblown belief in logic.

Not that I’ll ever accomplish this, of course…

aren’t too many of us actually listing this one… What’s the matter, scared?

Maybe with this goal I can at least succeed at something. But if I succeed at failing, then I’ve failed to fail. Argh! There’s no winning, ever.

Edit: This is sort of an on-off goal. Sometimes I want to fail just to spite society, and sometimes I just forget society is there and therefore have no motivation for failing.

Boawing!!!

its ummm
worth the learning experience i guess
but failing kinda starts to suck after a while