Don’t criticize anyone for one month

Well, I did end up criticizing someone! But I am continuing on…

Didnt criticize exactly, but I was negative. And self-deprecating. It’s amazing I find this so difficult….I consider myself a positive person, or at least positive-ish.

I didn’t criticize a person, but I did criticize a policy at work. I tried to do it constructively, but I might have been a bit too negative.

Ran into a tricky situation when discussing someone at work, but I just told the person I was with that I had given up criticizing. Lead to a good discussion.

Just having this goal has made me more aware of the negativity I have been projecting, so it’s a success either way. But, I’m really trying to cut down on this list, so this month I will absolutely do no criticizing. Especially of others who are not there to defend themselves.
Here’s my stipulations: I cannot be negative about anyone who isn’t there when I am talking. If asked for honest advice, I have to consider whether the person will benefit from a critique. Only then, I can give gentle advice but have to be careful to be constructive. When my job requires, I can critique others, but must do it in a positive light. I can evaluate my own life, but I have to give myself the same considerations I am allowing for others. I can not pass off negativity as “venting,” even if I don’t name specific people.
This starts now.
It will be hard…wish me luck.

for the rest of June!

I can get short fused with my illness flairing. If I can just manage to bring in a little extra money each moth I should be fine.

I don’t really blame my land lady but it frustrates me to have to bear her burdens. She has gone out partying and bought numerous things and is spending money on this that and the other thing all the while she can’t keep up with the utilities and is now making my rent higher to ‘break even’. Between her and her son I could think of several ways they could do better then break even. But… what bussiness is it of mine. The rent is still low end (though to high for what I’m getting in my opinion) and I’ve got a summer through to about late november to figure some alternatives before things get too tight provided I can find four hundred dollars around some place.

well for now anyway, I’m now unemploed, and my rent is suddenly a hundred dollars more expensive. One of my bonsai seedlings toppled and is not likely to survive, and after yesterdays painful illness attack that had me passed out on the floor, I’m pretty sure I have reason to be less then optemistic and can be forgiven for venting some words about my bosses and my land lady.

I’m looking down the barrel of six months of dwindle before I am forced to abandon all that belongs to me, go broke and become homeless. Which with my medical problem means months of excruciating pain and then likely death from inability to tend to the condition properly.

I worry about this one should I survive the next winter.

Why must the world confront my with so many stress building situations when I’ve taken away a route of pressure release.

Honestly, the number of drivers who have scared and nearly killed me with thoughtless actions in the last week is alarming. And my land lady rode my behind about copper discoloration in the bathroom being there because she thinks I’m not clean, rather then the fact that the faucet in the tub is not just dripping but dribbling non stop.

Her son upstairs keeps waking me with his rap music at any random hour… and on and on.

I don’t know if I didn’t notice it before and just dismissed it with a remark and moved on but now that I keep trying to get through just one week without saying something negative they keep hitting me in the face.

The hardest part believe it or not is not saying anything about myself. That’s a little bit I added for myself.

I went through a thrift shop and saw a 6 in 1 printer scanner type thing that was out of ink. I left to do some research on wether or not I could refill and or replace those inks and yes I can. They’d closed so I came back the next day and it was gone. for 10$ I could have had something that would have been a color copier, scanner, printer, fax, and had slots that take the card from my older model digital camera (so I could develop my own photos at home) and the ink refills could have been done for cheaper then many ink cartridges.

I beat myself up for that all day.

this will be a hard one because it is human nature for people to judge one another.