be happy when I wake up

at least I am not waking up unhappy! that is progress I believe. the first five minutes of the day are the most important: it’s the moment that you are gaining consciousness from a semi-dead state of being. when the inspiration for the day pops into your brain and you begin to formulate what you want from life day after day, then you’ve figured out one piece of the puzzle to being happy…

Woke up today feeling decent. I have a feeling that expressing myself here has helped (that was only yesterday!). It is important for everybody to have an outlet; to express oneself is perhaps one of the most overlooked human needs. Thanks 43things!

I’m hesitant to mark this as successfully done because I want to achieve some level of consistency here. I’m leaving the possibility open that I have alot more work to do.

this is something new for me. it’s not something I’ve experienced before, or at least it’s not something I’ve been aware of while it was happening (if it is something that happened in the past). at any rate, it’s reality right now and I can’t seem to shake this way of thinking. I wake up miserable, not looking forward to the day. the oddest part is that before I go to sleep, I have a positive attitude about the next day and make a mental list of all the things I can do to restore normalcy (perhaps I should write them down…). but somehow, the first thought in my mind when I wake up is, “this day is going to suck!” that initial thought is painful for a few minutes up until the point that I can push that anxiety out of my mind and actually get on with what needs to be done.