keep secrets

if i can do this, i can do anything. it’s all about self control.

My therapist asked how work was going for me and that led to a discussion about which doctors I enjoy working with. When I mentioned the one I like best that gives me the least amount of stress she says ” he’s an addict, huh? ” Well, I didn’t know what she meant. There are many addictions. I said “oh, I don’t know anything about any of that” and she just nodded and said it again.
Well.
Now I can’t not think about that every time I have to work with him now. I know I will (other than here) keep that to myself. I really, really love this guy and it would reflect badly on me if I did say anything. BUT the bigger issue that came from this is…
I’m not going to see her anymore. How can I trust that my most darkest confidences are not repeated? It makes me more acutely aware of how I must be perceived when I blab carelessly about something I shouldn’t.

Only because I can’t hardy contain myself with a secret. I get so jazzed when I think I’ve found the perfect gift, I can not wait to give it!

if I put my mind to it, I can do it type of goals. :)

So I’ve been doing well in this for the past few months and now it is time to let go and embark on new goals! :)

good at this now. :)

it seems like this is impossible for me. >.<

I know I can keep secrets…I just have to learn to keep more secrets to myself. There are many other things to talk about. :)

reaffirming my determination for this goal.

Even if things aren’t secrets, I need to learn to watch what I say. People can always miscontrue and people talk – and then my reputation will be shot. I’d hate for people to stop trusting me and stop coming to me when they need someone there for them or someone to listen.

For this, this goal is synonymous with the concept of learning to restrain and learning to think before I speak.

Why are secrets always bursting to come out?

And it’s also hard when people keep ASKING about things you don’t want to tell. Even if it’s not a secret, per se, but just something you don’t want to say.

I’m not a secretive person by nature. I don’t like too many secrets around me – because if I want to tell someone, I probably will. I don’t intentionally keep secrets mostly – like if I don’t mention something, it’s probably because I think it’s irrelevant or I think the person doesn’t care to know or I just plain forget to mention it. Also that sometimes, it’s no one else’s business – for examle, if I’m going out to dinner with an old friend, and if it doesn’t happen to come up in the conversation with someone else, I’m not going to be all deliberately forcing it into the coversation. It’s not like it’s a big deal. But sometimes people think I keep secrets. Even if it’s small things like that.

I hate how people try to nose their way into my business – the more they try, the more I clam up. They can learn quite a lot about me if they don’t get nosy about it.

Being a keeper of secrets is part of what makes me a good listener and a great friend.