to move to the coast one day

I’m in the beginning stages of divorce, so I’ll be stuck where I am for a few years, but I will make it to the coast. One day.

I found out last night, that my husband is just going to make more and more excuses for not moving. He said like 2 years ago, to give him a couple of years, that with the elks lodge and his position in it, that moving would have to wait till the end of his term in office. last night i found out when I mentioned to friends our goals, of moving, that he came up with the same f%$@@ excuse, of the house and it’s not making as much money off the house, to not move;. ugh! i’m so pissed off about it. i’m done with his bull crap of keeping his head up his butt, because he’s too afraid to move! argh!!!!!!!!!!!

I don’t know if I want to go into real estate right now. The way the housing market is, it wouldn’t be feasible right now to get into it. It’s so hard to get into a job when the market is crashing around you. This is still a goal. My husband was offered a job with our friends up north yet again. I’m hoping next year that he will go for it, since he’ll be done with the elks lodge in april of 09. I really can’t wait to start fresh up north. It will be different, but I’m hoping next year will be great!

As of yesterday, I was made aware that my daughters, one is 4 and will be 5 in sept. 08, the 15th to be exact, and the other will be 2 next week, won’t be able to go on to their school, as in, my oldest wont get to start kindergarten, which also means, she will have to be in preschool, for 3 years, and my youngest, who was going to start school in august next year, won’t get to start for a year. They are both so smart. I am not just saying that. California is trying to pass a law, and I understand it, but still, it pisses me off, the law is to make it so that kids with birthdays after september 1st, won’t get to go to school, or start kindergarten till the next year. As of now, the law is December 1st, for the cut off. So, now, kids in between those dates are going to be held back, because the state is cutting in and taking over. It makes me so sad, that my daughter, who couldn’t understand why she had to go to preschool for a second year, cause she started a year early, at 3, and I believe 2 years of preschool, is better than daycare, that now she is supposed to be held back another year. She isn’t going to understand it. It’s going to make her, no matter how much I tell her otherwise, think that she’s not smart enough to be with the kids that she’s gone to school with the last 2 years. As it is, she wanted to be in kindergarten with the kids who went there this year. She has friends in those classes. Now, my daughter who is at the top of her class, and is one of the younger in her age group, is going to be held back because of stupid laws. WHY!

Anyways, the reason why I am talking about this, is because I had planned for my almost 3 year old to start school in august, and my 4 year old, going to be 5 next year, go to school longer because she’d be in kindergarten, anyways, during the time they were at school, i was going to do school work, to be able to get my real estate license, and now I won’t be able to do that.

Figures. I can still try, but it’s going to take longer than I thought, now because of this stupid law they are trying to pass. ARGH! I am so sad and mad about this whole thing.

Next spring I will buy the real estate course online, so that I can work towards my goal. By the end of the year, I would like to get my Real Estate License. Then I want to get in at one of the real estate places around town, and start working towards getting the necessary 2 year requirement, before I can start working on my license for my Appraisel license. After that, I can start working towards saving money, during also, towards getting us a way out of here, to the coast of Washington. I love the area, would like to go up for a vacation, and really see if that’s the area I would like to move. If not, I want to check out the other area’s of the coast, and see what’s my dream area to live. That’s where I’m at. Just waiting till probably march for taxes to come back, so I can buy the course. We’ll see.

and he of course with his attitude, said, oh nice, there you can’t have a car older than 6 years old… nice huh. I told him, that I want to move there, that’s my goal. So we’ll see. He’ll come around, I know he will.

I wrote an entirely long entry for this, and now it’s not here. Oh well. This is my life long dream that I recently realized. I want to make it come true! I am going to make it come true. I have this beautiful picture in my dining room. It’s of this house, on the beach, all white, you can see part of the porch, like you’re standing on it, looking at the beach and ocean, just off the porch. It’s gorgeous, and it’s my inspiration. I used to live with my dad during the summers, and he lived in san diego, right on the beach, or just a couple blocks down from the beach. It was awesome! I want that for my children, and for me. I asked my husband where he sees himself retiring to. We are both young, him in his early thirties, my in my late 20s. Never really thought about where I want to be after this area. I just thought that anywhere sounded good, as long as it’s not here, I could live anywhere. That’s still true, but I want to live on the coast. I want to live a couple of blocks at the most from the beach. But for me to make this dream come true, I need to go to school for real estate and photography. I think this is the only way I can make it happen in the next few years. We’ll see! My dream is to have a white picket fence, a little cottage or bungalow, need a few bedrooms, not only for our kids, and future kids, but for family to come visit too. I like the northern coast of oregon, and the coast and puget sound of washington. I want to be close to the water, and I think it would be wonderful to be near the ocean. I can still remember the smell and feel of the salt air. It puts me at peace. I want that daily. I want to feel in awe of what I accomplished. I think this is my major goal. This is something I want to strive for from this day forward. One day, hopefully in the next 5 years, it will come true! Have a great day everyone!