Not be afraid to tell someone that I love them and mean it.

I’m not exactly sure if i’ve ever loved someone (a significant other). A best friend of mine and boyfriend of only 1 month told me he was falling in love with me. Not sure of what to say and not wanting to upset him by not saying anything, I said it back after a little bit of convincing that I did feel the same. But the real question I was asking myself was did I mean it. To be perfectly honest, no. But did I think that given a little more time I could have meant it? Yes, absolutely. Now the question that countlessly crosses my mind, if given that opportunity would it have been worth it? I would like to think so, but then again you can’t really change people. Eric would have broken my heart further down the road even more than he already did if things got even more serious and our relationship grew stronger. I know that I could have loved him, and I know now that he is incapable of committment. So even after almost 7 months it hurts me to think about it and about everything we shared, but I guess it was for the best.