have my own place

I will rent a place all to myself and have a kitchen that is completely mine. A bathroom that I don’t share. I can turn on the lights whenever I want. To be able to have a place to bring people whenever I want and have them go, and be by myself. I will.

I’m feeling a bit depressed about my living situation. It’s not at all bad living at my mum again, but I so badly want to move back to the town I used to live when I still lived on my own.

But it seems I’m just not a very welcome roommate :s we have this system that you go for an interview with the potential roommates, and they just never pick me! :( I don’t no why, I really am a quite normal person. I can be a bit shy, but I have learned by now to show enthusiasm and interest in these situations. And I have normal hobbies, I don’t look awful (I hope) and I’m quite likable, as far as I know.
And all these rejections are now a bit too much. I know I have to be patient, but I really hate not being able to live on my own at 23, just because people won’t let me rent a room or what! :(

Any tips that might help make myself more ‘appealing’ as a roommate? :)

Is there such a thing? I’d like a place to be able to afford to rent or buy and call home. The insane housing bubble made affording either impossible these past ten years.

I want to be able to have a place that I can call MINE! Not a place that I share w/ just a roommate or family! Significant other, maybe, but I STILL want my OWN place. I like my space, sleeping by myself, sometimes, and just doing what I want to do, but it can get lonely :( We’ll see what happens in the next few months or so! :) Wish me luck!!!!!!!

The House Of Belonging by David Whyte
I awoke
this morning
in the gold light
turning this way
and that

thinking for
a moment
it was one
day
like any other.

But
the veil had gone
from my darkened heart
and I thought
it must have been the quiet
candlelight
that filled my room,

it must have been
the first
easy rhythm
with which I breathed
myself to sleep,

it must have been
the prayer I said
speaking in the otherness
of the night.

And I thought
This is the good day
You could
meet your love…

Before you pick up a hammer, a paintbrush, or the real estate ads, take time to daydream. Walk through the rooms where you eat, sleep, and live. Give thanks as you sift and sort, simplify and bring order to the home you have.
-Simple Abundance

Love does not stop. Energy doesn’t stand still. And neither do our homes. They’re pulsing with all that we carry in; they vibrate, hum, resonate with every cry and murmur and snap and cheer of our hearts. They are our second skins the shells we build, like snails, enlarging and encrusting with the whorls of our days, months, years. They are our most private and most telling of places. There they stand, for the world to see. And for us to make them what we will.
-Dominique Browning

I know it’s a long-term plan, but I was thinking about it these last days. I’m so proud how well I’m going with my saving account to this goal. I’m wondering how I can save until my graduation. I hope it can be a lot, so I can get my place, give a good entrance for it and pay the parcels with the job I get. Probably it will be my main goal in 2011. I can wait for this! Until there, I’ll try to keep my good job.

I am so sick of living with my parents and brothers…I can’t wait to graduate and move out, but that’s at least a year away :(

The house hunting is still a disaster, but as I really need a private working space, my mum and I decided to make some chances in the house soon. So I’ll move from my very small room with only a bedroom, to a larger one, which is now the study. I’ll install my own table, and the desk that is now in the study will move to the small room. So maybe not the ideal solution of finding a wonderful place of my own, but at least a bit more personal space :)

or a place I can really call home

I’m going to ask a guy I now from college about this project he participated in – he lived in an empty building to keep it ‘save’ from people moving in illegaly. The rent is supposed to be low, and the room to live in large, so I think it could be a option to find something on short term. The problem is, though, that I’ll go abroad for about three months to do research for my final thesis, so I think it might be smart to stay here at my mothers till then, and try to get a place like that for when I get back. As I’m hoping to move abroad again for app. a year in October, it could be a great way to have something between my research time and the time I’ll leave again (Am I still making sense ;)?) Anyhow, I hope 2009 will bring me a new place to live, one way or another. I miss being on my own…