say what's on my mind

i want to get married now

I’m terrible at saying whats on my mind most of the time….

I have gotten a little better… but I hope soon I can completely do it when its necessary.

Accomplished. I have no problem saying what is on my mind anymore. I found this out on Valentines day when I was speed dating of all things. The guy I ended up meeting and talking with extensively afterwards was very straight forward, as was I. I can honestly say this no longer has to be a goal as I have reached it.

My 7 year old sister was telling my 16 year old sister how mean she can be. I was very proud of Desi (the 7 year old) because she did it in a very mature way, not shouting it, she just told her how she felt. Ashley proceeded to say something like “I guess back talking isn’t just for elementary”... what she said made no sense to me. Desi hadn’t been talking back, she had been speaking her mind and telling Ashley how she felt about the way Ashley was treating her. I actually agreed with what Desi had been saying… so instead of walking out of the room like I normally would after Ashley’s lame attempt to shrug of and ignore what Desi had said I said “It’s not back talk, she’s just telling you something you don’t want to hear” and walked out of the room. Don’t think she’s terribly happy with me, but whatever. She’s decided to be (brutally) honest, so I’m just repaying the favor. If only I could take this and apply it to other people. Usually instead of speaking up I have these conversations in my head. I probably worry to much about hurting peoples feelings. When it comes to people outside of… well, when it comes to anyone other than my brother or sisters, I have a hard time just saying what I think, when I think it. There are times when its not appropriate to say whatever is on my mind, but I need to learn to take advantage of the times when it is. I’ll get there someday.

i’m getting better at this.
i’m finally doing it.
i’m telling people off, and being nice at the same time.
i still have work to do.
but it’s getting there.

I am getting more and more clam-like. I have the conversations in my head, but rarely speak it out. It isnt helping me, all this bottling up. I lose my temper more often, and then sulk in silence. I know I’ve gotta get out of this mode, but a lifetime of ‘not talking’ isnt an easy habit to break. Any pointers on how do I start with this, without worrying to death about how the other person will feel?

Okay, this is partly true. I do say what’s on my mind, but only with certain people. I wish I didn’t hesitate with telling people about things that are bothering me. I guess it’s because I feel that I’m being judged and that is holding me back from expressing my feelings. Also, I’m scared that the things I say would effect the relationship I have with that person. I have to get over this stupid fear. I will..someday.

When i dont want to go out i should just ppl and not switch off my phone and ignore them! If a guy friend is coming on to me and touching me inappropriately i should have the guts to say no! when a person wants my num n i dont want to give it them i should just say- instead of giving them a fake one or ignoring there calls! If i dont want to work 3 jobs i should tell them… it will take time, but i think i’ll get there- if i carry on like this i’ll be seriously depressed when i’m older doing nothing i want to do, around ppl i dont want to be- i dont want to be like this!

this wasn’t such a great idea. I seem to say really dumb things.

^{well i was sick a few days ago, and i was sooooo annoyed by everything. i guess u can say i was saying whats on my mind.. or just simply calling me a bitch. either way.. it felt good to tell someone NO instead of being taking advantage of.}