get over my panic and anxiety disorders

... I had some free time, and I completely cleaned the dishes, which is a big deal for me. Typically, I have weird neuroses about finishing the dishes, but that didn’t stop me this time.

...that’s over. I tried for a while to cut down on one of my meds as an experiment, and drinking grapefruit juice every day. Weird reasoning: I’d heard that grapefruit juice increases the bioavailability of some medications (so they work better, or at least more immediately), and for some reason I thought I could cut back a little and take less of that one med as long as I drank grapefruit juice regularly.

Of course, looking back a month later, I realize this was complete nonsense. Grapefruit juice lowers the effectiveness of some medications, and cutting back on a med without checking with my psychiatrist was not a fantastic idea. Suffice it to say, that little experiment is over.

Everything is pretty keen, at the moment.

spoke to my caseworker this week and i did a mood & anxiety test. I scored loooads better on both tests :) this made me really happy!
she is going to book me on a course thats supposed to help me with my confidence and self esteem. if it helps me as much as the anxiety course that i went on it can only be a good thing.

... lousy week. I was out of one med for almost a week, which was bad. I had a minor break at the psych, which sucked a little, but it brought up some old memories of depression I’d rather not remember; useful issues to address.

I’m back on my med again, and I should have another supply here pretty soon.

... problem getting my meds; I’ve been out for a few days now, and I can feel the difference.

had a bad panic attack yesterday but trying not to let it get to me. Didnt handle it well but im telling myself it was a one off and I am much better dealing with them than i was when they started.
Just hoping that one day they will just stop…

recently completed a 4-week anxiety workshop.
it was a series of group sessions for 2hrs per week, and was kind of a self-help/help each other kind of thing.
it was really useful and i found i learned quite a lot in a short space of time.
kind of missing the group support already but i have taken a lot away with me to use and to think about :)
I have also realised today that i havent had a panic attack in about 2 weeks :D

... getting a full-time job has been one of the big challenges where my anxiety has restricted me. Not being able to work a full-time job is a serious problem for becoming independent, moving out of my parents’ house, making a life for myself, and so on. After a few days of living through this temporary job, I’m feeling slightly more confident about my ability to deal with this.

I’m actually goint to the psychiatrist tomorrow, to get this thing with my diagnosis started, and Im probably gonna talk to her about my panic. For me this is a big step, since last time I went there I didnt even talk. I havent been nervous until today. Hope it’ll leads to me getting my AS diagnose soon.

ok, so Im sitting here all dr4essed to go out, I have to mail some packages which I should have done like two weeks ago, and also do some grocery shopping, but I cant get myself to walk out the door. Instead I get panicky and starts to change my clothes or shoes and suddenly its an hour later. I usually need to set a time, today its 4 pm, in an hour. By this time I should already have left. But since I know its an hour left to 4, Im doing this instead.

Gaaa, its not that difficult to go outside, right. Im doing it now. Im finished, all I have to do is put on my jacket and leave.. Gosh. Something is seriously wrong ere.

Wish me luck.