get over my panic and anxiety disorders

... I journaled, and did some “honesty writing” (which is exactly what it sounds like). Pulled up some negative stuff, but then found some positive stuff under it.

I took extra of my anti-panic meds (just a little) because it’s not getting me the results I need, and this is not a time to be “close” to being ready to start school.

... trying to deal with school stuff. Everthing that added on top just brought the whole thing closer to collapsing.

...I had an opportunity to cheese out, which is what I would normally do, but I moved through it. It doesn’t feel as great, knowing that it’s mostly the meds, but still…

... I’ve been preparing to go back to school. I’ve been anxious, but it does feel a little bit easier; I presume because of the meds.

... get my sleep schedule regulated, my meds may work better. So that’s my current top goal.

... I lost my last job, after two weeks. It was ugly; I locked myself in my room for 3 days and hated myself for it ceaselessly for the next week or so.

Working on getting the right meds so it doesn’t happen again, but the old failures feed the new anxiety, which is lame.

this is my new account since i cant seem to get into my old one and not sure why so im just reposting everything ok
my old account was xXThe-Little_FairyXx

hi….i umm..id like to do this…i have alot of anxiety problems and i get anxiety attacks to….recently i get them in school alot…i want them to stop..but im already on medicine a high dose..its not working
im a dancer…or will be if i recover from my severe anorexia anyways.but i was a dancer and plan to be one again….but anxiety makes it realy difficult for me to reach my full potential as a dancer. dancing is what i loves.its a part of me but with anxiety it seems as iff i just cant be the dancer i could be without it and it realy makes me depressed and angry

hi….i umm..id like to do this…i have alot of anxiety problems and i get anxiety attacks to….recently i get them in school alot…i want them to stop..but im already on medicine a high dose..its not working

Well i have read many of these and I can’t tell you how many sound exactly like my story. I am a musician I haven’t i sing and play guitar i mostly sing though and i would get the temporary nervousness. But this summer about the end of may I pulled a chest muscle and i couldn’t really breathe right so I started having a panic attack and my mom brought me to the er. They had to give me a shot to calm me down and I went home feeling better and slept for like 12 hours lol. Then after the 4th of July I started having panic attacks in movie theatres with my friends just having fun on the way home one night of being out I had a panic attack on the way home and it’s like roll the window down and don’t talk to me! So finally I’d had enough I told my mom to bring me to the doctors they put me on lexapro well that made things worse i almost passed out i had the shakes etc. So they switched me to buspirone that seemed like it was working but we kept upping the dose. During all this time i was having stomache problems I went to go to van’s warped tour and on the way their I had bad pains after I would pee so had my mom pick me up when we were only an hour away from where we left thank god. The doctor treated me for a bladder infection even though it wasn’t spotted in my urine. Then i went again because it wasn’t working I went to a different place and they said i had a uti so i was like ok let’s see. That stopped working so I went up again and got a papsmear and ultrasounds and x-rays…NOTHING WAS WRONG. I felt helpless so then I went to an actualy gyno got another papsmear minding u 2 days after my first one and then she said she thought it was stomache problems and i had to wait 2 wks for this doctor to get back from vacation. This was a very hard 2 wks. Finally he said i had Irritable bowl syndrome and acid reflux. I had meds for that and it started working. Then school started in September…The beginnign was tough i missed quite a few days. Then they said my buspirone wasn’t working and put me on celexia and that has been working since.In september i also started counseling..it taught me alot about my disorder and i always look on the web for new things on anxiety i am also doing a research paper on it since i have been through it all. I am pushing myself to do a duet for one of my last concerts in high school and for my graduation party I have wanted to do it for forever and I will conquer this. I wanted to give up so many times but couldn’t i still have panic attacks and palphaltations but not half as much as i did and I am happy with how far i have come from being so bad but i know i can get a lot better and i’m hoping this website can also help me talking to people with this horrible thing to deal with everyday.

dont give up
hey anxiety sucks ass
i mean everything will be just fine
and then boom
you start feeling weird and panic is in the back of your mind
and then you thing your going to die
or cant breath and start sweating
and freaking out

i used to pray to god and jesus,
naked on the shower floor
drawing crosses on the shower wall with the soap bar
crying
for my angels to surrond me and take my anxiety away
and for along time i didnt think anything could stop it,i tried everything ,i used to take effexor(anti-depresent)and spent tons of money on anxiety stuff..
i mean i given up hope.
but then the anxiety got old
i got tierd of staying home afraid
to go out
in public and from the stores
just because of the stupid anxoety disorder
....its true what they say “DONT LET ANXIETY CONTROL YOUR LIFE”

and thats what i did
and said f**k this
this is my life…with just a few prayers to god
(im not even religous,but thats how desprate i was and you know what?
it worked)

there are lots of ways to get rid of anxiety
1.do something to take your mind off of it.
2.eat something
3.talk to someone
4.radio
5.look at your favorite celebrity
6.take a shower and relax take deep breaths and say everything
7.look up about anxiety attacks/panica attack
will be ok,and it will go away soon.
and read about how it CAN NOT HURT OR KILL YOU.
and reasure your self that EVERYTHING WILL BE OKYOUR NOT THE ONLY PERSON GOING THROUGH ANXIETY
odds are that when you have a panic/anxiety attack
there are thousand if not millions of people world wide,
in cludeing the united states
now every once in a while it comes back to torment me
but ive learnd how to control it
and now when i have the first signs of anxiety.like the chills down the spine
and ugly weird feeling.

i can be done and anxiety can be overcome

please dont give up hope

paramorerocker12@aol.com
email me if anyone needs to talk =)