I have trust issues and i hate myself for it. It has taken me a few years maybe to be able to come out and say that. How can i tell someone i have trust issues with people in general without hurting the other person?
I’ve been with my boyfriend over a year now, and i really do love him. This i thought could never happen to me, especially after what i’ve been through in the past. We work extremely well together, better than most couples ever get which is fantastic. We are to be honest, a very good match and i can honestly say that i am VERY lucky. He has in the past though when we go out with his old work friends been VERY flirty etc with the women he used to work with, but this was only done whenhe was drunk. I finally plucked up the courrage to tell him, and he was devestated really, didn’t know that he could do such a thing. He thanked me for telling him, for being honest with him, and thngs have become much better.
He’s a good man. Very rarely do you find such a person. I want the best in life for him, and all i want for him is to enjoy himself in whatever he does in his life.
He’s going on holliday to Falaraci (sorry if i spelt wrong) in June with his friends. His friends being all men, appart from two that RE HAVING THEIR GIRLFRIENDS COME WITH THEM obviously because they cannot be trusted. One i know would probably even go with someone RIGHT IN FRONT of his girlfriend.
We had a discussion a few weeks ago. I’ve decided this year all im going to ber is honest and tell people how i feel nstead of keeping it all inside. I basically told him, please dont cheat on me im begging you. his reply was he loves me, and he isnt stupid enough to let me go. what would be the point when he knows what he has, and so forth. This settled me so much, it’s just nce to hear your boyfriend say things like that once in a while. After being cheated on in the past i do need reassurance sometimes.
We went out last nite, and he was absolutelly drunk! and was ok with everything n flirting etc at all…but he was sooooooooooooooo drunk i dont know how anyne could make a good decision in that state. I mean if that was anyone else he could have gone home with a man he was so drunk!
I just hope he means what he says that he wont go with anyone. Hes been cheated on himself in the past so he knows how it feels. hopefully he’l remember this when he goes on holliday, and just thinks to himself, if i ever cheat i’l be no better than my ex-girlfriend, and he hates her!
It’s not only my boyfriend though…i have a very big lack if trust when people have alcohol inside them basically, im beginning to hate going out or im allways on alert because i just cant fr the life of me trust people..im a bit stuck at the moment. I just hope that in june, when hes gione for the week, that i’l cope, and that i wont worry myself sick, because i’ve never been in love with someone like this before, hats it for me now im done, i know who i want to be with full stop.
