stop thinking about the past

Life changes and I need to be content with where I am because it’s beautiful.

i dont want to forget the past. i have a wonderful past it was fun and exciting and thrilling and everything. but sometimes i sit at home and think about it
liek its okay to think about it once in a while
but i literally go through EVERYTHING that happend. like specificc days i go through everything that happened if it was a good day.
and i want to REMEMBER them,but i dont want to think about them
and if its a friday night and i didnt go out i dont want to sit at home in my room thinking about the friday i had 2 months ago where i had so much fun. i just want to live in the now and have fun and be happy with what im doing now.

its easy to say you want to forget about the past, but i just dont know how to do it. especially when i made the worst mistake of my entire life 2 days ago. i realize its over and i’m trying so hard to gain acceptance and move on. i want to know that i learned from what happened and believe i can change. i believe i can change. i have faith, but sometimes its too hard, especially at night when its only me in a dark room with thoughts circulating my mind and the what ifs. what if i didnt do that. i am strong i will face it and tell myself its ok. it will be ok. i am strong.

ive had a scary past… and when i think about it i fall under a mini depression. I don’t want that … it just happened yesterday. i just want to focus on the future and how happy i am now …all i need is focus right ?

I’ve totally come to terms with my past. I see no need to think about it and try to change it. It can’t be done. I can see that all that I was asking the Universe for I was given. I just didn’t know that I was asking for some of the crap I was dealing myself. I know now. I feel much better about the past knowing this.