I haven’t written on here for a while, but seeing as I have the time I thought that I would make the effort to do so.
I have been making some videos of myself singing and getting some positive responses on facebook and youtube. Not many, but I guess that it means something at least.
Probably the main thing was making myself do the talent show at University. I didn’t win, but I did pretty good and I put myself out there again which was lovely :) I didn’t get freaked out either, I was surprised at how chilled I was. It can be quite eye opening sometimes to see how my confidence has grown over the past few years.
Now I plan to sing whenever I can, just in my room, and karaoke etc. I think that standing up there and singing in front of people counts, and it is something that I aim to continue with.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDPVEJPrY44 2 months ago
I went for an audition today, some group is setting up a Andrew Lloyd Webber muscial in Riihimäki.
Before the audition I had this weird, very unknown feeling. Certainty. I felt deep inside that I could do this. I can sing.
I don’t remember the last time I felt so certain about my own ability to do anything, generally I just doubt myself.
I hadn’t had any time to practise or really warm up. I had planned to sing a very easy song (I don’t know how to love him from Jesus Christ Superstar) but a last-minut gut-feeling made me go with the more difficult Think of Me from Phantom of the Opera. And it went really well, “wonderful” they said, “so effortless”, “I love your voice”, comments about how all danish women sing so beautiful.
And – I BELIEVED them!
I actually honestly believed them. No voices in the back of my head telling me they don’t know what they’re talking about, that I actually suck, nothing like that at all!
I CAN SING!
After nearly 4 years where I haven’t been singing regulary, they still love my voice. I can still manage Think of Me, not perfect, but well! I wonder if my voice have matured these last couple of years? I wonder how far I can go if I actually start singing everyday again? Because I love singing. I really have to sing more! 6 months ago
I have been singinign regularly for 2 months now. I have a permanant lesson slot so I think this is officially done! 20 months ago
Another lesson tomorrow night! I think it might be the last one for a while since that slot won’t be free anymore and my parents won’t let me have the car out in the evenings usually. But after I get settled in my new place hopefully I can find time to make it work. I’ll definitely keep singing now though! 20 months ago
another practice today – it’s going very well. I can’t believe how terrified I was to sing 6 weeks ago. Even the mindfulness about my head posture have opened my top range up a lot.
:D 21 months ago
another great singing lesson tonight!
Very happy about this goal right now 21 months ago
I sang a lot today! Felt very good. Voice was a bit sore after. But I have another singing lesson on Tuesday.
I just can’t believe how much ability I’ve lost – I used to take my vocal range and flexibility for granted! 21 months ago