One thing I've realised
2 years ago
by actually recognising and writing all this stuff, the things I have the most regrets and sadness about are almost all things from when I was living at home or at school – and while it’s weird that stuff from so far back is still giving me a regular thrashing, I think it does suggest that at some point I got better at dealing with things, stronger and more positive. I think I’ve also learnt to ask for help and to depend on other people more.
So although it might have been better all round to have sorted out the bad stuff at the time it happened rather than bottling it up, I can be smart about how to release it now so it’s not having this permanent effect of dragging me down. I just have to work out how…
