follow my instincts

“Follow your instincts. That’s where true wisdom manifests itself.”
- Oprah Winfrey

I feel I should go towards the mountains tomorrow. I just have a feeling…

My mom always said, “You’ll do what you want no matter what anyone says” but she is usually angry when she said it :). I think my problem was that I was not following my instincts so much as what sounded good at the moment. I had a strong spiritual awakening recently where I discovered my animal totem (native american spirituality) and realized how far off the path I’m both meant to be on and want to be on, I was. So I am fiercely determined, hell or high water, to live my life as I should, to follow the signs. Even when they don’t make sense! But I think the most important thing is to follow these signs, instincts, pulls, and not think about it. Don’t analyze it. One day you’ll understand why you saw that, did that. It may not be for years but you will eventually see.

said, “Julie, you’ll do what you want too, no matter what anyone says”. So I guess I have always followed my instincts. It’s just nice to be reminded that I have been doing this. I have a Plan A, Plan B and a Plan C for the this year, there are major things I have to accomplish this year, with like finding a new job, where will I be living and possibly moving out of state. Those plans are just outlines for possibilities that could happen. I think it plays along with my other goals of believing in the possibilities, take a risk that changes my life and live my life by answering this question every day: “what would you do if you knew you could not fail?” So I can say 2008 will be a hell of a ride.

i’m really quite scared to follow my natural instincts….i have been following what i think i should do for so long….that i feel as though to follow my instincts would be selfish. I’m scared they might be…and it feels safer to do what i (and others) think i should, and what i think is socially aceptable.

But….if i look at the kind of person that i am and my priorities in life – me, my kids, my husband, friends, church, school/kindy etc….then surely i can’t go too far wrong?

wow imagine a whole life just doing what feels right…i’m naturally a very moral, honest and conscientous person so surely i won’t turn into an ogre over night…..LET’S SEE!!!

in this case, following my instincts, really means the same as my goal to be Courageous, as usually it is self-doubt and fear that prevents me from following my instincts. If I act with courage and conviction rather than be paralyzed with fear and self-doubt I will in turn be following my instincts. Make sense?!

I really should trust my instincts always. The first impression is usually the right one.

I don’t know what my instincts are telling me because I question them so rapidly. I am so fearful I am going to make a mistake and choose the wrong path I end up staying in one place.

I believe that my instincts can tell me what is wrong and what’s right thing to do. And I do believe that the inner voice does tell me what I should do. And it’s never wrong.

But following the inner voice is sometimes so hard cos there’s so many people who affects my life. Sometimes I can’t hear my voice over these peoples voices. And sometimes I do what’s reasonable and not that what my inner voice says.

I also think that “what heart says” is different than “inner voice”. My heart, my feelings are so easily manipulated by others. So I should hear my instincts also over my feelings.

SO I should follow my instincts, close my ears for manipulation and do what ever feels best.

I am so indecisive and it can be very debilitating. It is one of the aspects of my personality I would really like to overcome and discover why it is I can get so stuck in fear of chosing the wrong path. Recently I found myself unearthing a report card from grade school, maybe even as far back as pre-school. I discovered in that moment that I really have been this way almost my entire natural life; there in the teachers comments was her observation that I had a tendancy to be indecisive and that I should work on that! YIKES!