Everyday is the same process, i look around and wonder y im so imperfect. I seem to fuck up everything and i seem to have been born with the worst looks…=[
I wish i cud forgive myself and love hu i am…but its so hard…
Amnesia
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Oct 29, 04:16PM PDT | 2 comments
it’s like i can tolerate other people’s faults, but not my own, i beat myself up about the slightest little thing and feel guilt over the most trivial of things..i need to remind myself that it’s ok to make mistakes once in a while, everyone makes them, we are not made perfect and it is natural to screw up from time to time, and that at the end of the day only God can judge me, not super-religious people who are keen to cast the first stone and leave me in a state of constant anxiety and uncertainty =)
Aug 23, 2007, 11:19AM PDT | 3 cheers | 1 comment
Aug 16, 2007, 10:53PM PDT | 1 cheer | 15 comments
I’M GOOD ENOUGH, I’M SMART ENOUGH, AND DOGGONE IT, PEOPLE LIKE ME!
~Stuart Smalley
Jun 03, 2007, 09:53PM PDT | 2 cheers | 5 comments
Shadowchilde is working on healing her life mentally, spiritually and physically.
Its hard, when all I want to do is be successful. There is a saying that you can rate your success by how well you lived your life. How many times you appreciated others… not that they appreciated you.
With this said… I guess I am very successful, because I appreciate so many people and aspects of my life.
But, I am not perfect. I do the best that I can and I hope that its good enough. I hope that I am a good enough mother to care for my step-daughter. I hope that I’m a good enough wife, holding down the fort while my husband gets ready to be deployed. (this one is a toughie) I hope that I am good enough worker… but then again, I’m pretty angry at work at this moment.
I have to forgive myself and be okay with not being perfect. There are just too many things that I have no control over. And I shouldn’t waste energy on those things, but instead tend to the things that I can control.
Blessings,
Shadowchilde
May 09, 2007, 04:03PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
It’s OK to stuff up sometimes. As I heard Tiger Woods say on the TV tonight, “It’s OK to fail. What’s important is how you respond.” So true. I’m back on my horse, so to speak…
Apr 24, 2007, 05:21AM PDT | 0 comments
There will always be days that I don’t really like myself, but in the end I will know my good qualities more than the bad.
Apr 16, 2007, 06:02PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
When someone tells me that I have failed to live up to their expectations it is hard not to get down on myself. But, it is important that I remind myself that nobody is perfect and sometimes others don’t realise what my strengths are.
Apr 03, 2007, 04:14AM PDT | 3 cheers | 1 comment
this goal because it is something I believe is achievable (even in the near future) and is something I need to work on. I tend to be pretty hard on myself. I beat myself up when I don’t need to and that only holds me back from accomplishing things in my life more easily.
Oct 06, 2006, 09:47AM PDT | 3 cheers | 9 comments
Here’s the thing . . .
I’m all ready to accept my imperfect self – and then I come across some sort of self-improvement/self-help thing which causes me to re-evaluate my whole life and go on another campaign of beating myself up in the name of “improvement”
There has to be a balance – and I’m on a new qwest to figure out what the difference is between being “perfect” and trying to become better.
Aug 15, 2006, 07:00PM PDT | 3 cheers | 0 comments