get over her

I feel much better now and I am going on with my life finally, it been so long and I am happy its over… Getting over her doesn’t mean to forget her, all it means is ‘going on’.

Who I’m kidding?

I moved on with my life. Good.

warning when someone important from your past will cross your mind and color your day…or week…with the thoughts of what was…could have been and what will always be part of me…or even us…

This feels about right…

you can only take so much shit before you just WANNA throw in the towel!

I don’t feel like I have to have her in my life anymore. I’ve gotten past the point of being able to go a day without feeling like contacting her, as I much prefer to talking to other people. It wasn’t her, really, it was just that I couldn’t stop being angry with what she did to me, and what she started doing to herself, and how she blamed me for it.

It’s been a really depressing night, and she’s probably going to be mad at me again soon, and I’m sorry. But the good news is even though I’m fucked in the head to some point, for the most part I’ve learned to leave you alone.

I know I’ll never be a good person ever again, but I do know how to feel truly apologetic for being a bad person at least. I’m sorry.

Don’t even know why I got so hung up. She’s a great friend now.

know what to do about this goal… The whole thing has become way too complex to explain in a couple of lines, well it might be a perfect “soap”y scenario – the Bold and the Italics or so – if spread out over 2 or 3 seasons – otherwise it would seem too unrealistic:) Bottom line – we’re still together, and it (“we”) may last longer than expected.
Done? Certainly not. Give up? Sort of, maybe, a number of friends advise to go my own way now… I’ll mark “give up”. For the time being? Or forever?

i may needa re-open this goal
sigh
damn that girl and her ability to remind me of everything i no longer have.
:(

Yeah so i thought i was getting close. i’m not even.

Turns out the whole memory Elane this is too much for me. I went to Geelong with my mates, and going down that stretch of road again was something interesting thats for sure. Even playing with Kim’s new Wii, was enough. ( i really suck at the wii, even smashed ali was better than me). Kim naturally had a nicki wii man, which looks nothing like the last time i saw her, but more like the first time i saw her. when we we picking the look alike on the wii, and the only one i beat kim on was the finding nicki one. she was actually suprised at my speed.

i still suck at the wii.

but i have my own character. i wanted a pic, but my battery was shot.

all in all, i’m not over her, and all this brang it back home to me. it sucks because she hates me for some weird strange nicki reason.

I suppose its coming up to the very exciting Jul 8 again… only it isn’t that exciting, as it was last year though.