motivate myself

I mainly need this for my studies and for any possibility of me having a social life. Despite plenty of academic oppurtunities, the possibility of enjoying the company of others, rewards such as holidays and numerous attempts to gauge my mind into revealing what I really want, I have pretty much nothing in the way of motivation. I’ve recently started trying to meditate in the mornings to clear my mind so it’s easier to think, I’m going to go to the universities I may be studying at in the hope it’ll motivate me to study and I’ve been talking to old freinds in the hope that one of them will respond. So far, my mind’s as clouded as ever and I’ve been shot down more times in the space of a month than I have in the rest of the past year. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do to drive myself on. 2 weeks ago

since i feel i made major switch in my perception towards motivating setup in my mind. i reconsidered my standards and expectations, and i changed my attitude towards myself. 5 months ago

it is actually OK to work and not feel effort! i need to let go the need for strugle and pressure and just go with the flow.
“carry the water, chopp the wood” 6 months ago

I have two days to accomplish this. Here’s what I’ve concluded motivation comes and goes, but routine is forever. I’m not always motivated when I’m getting something done, but if it’s part of my schedule, my routine, I do it anyway. 6 months ago

excited about small things. purchased inexpensive bread maker and making homemade jams, that kind of things. simple but precious. following what i feel right for that moment.
each day to find another thing to be excited about, but keeping low pace to prevent burning out, that is the balance.
before i used to be either excited burning myself out, or and doing nothing and being sad for it. and also i had my own expectations of what kind of things makes me happy, doing them and not enjoying too much,instead of seing what really makes me happy. 6 months ago

This morning I read over every single entry I made during my 100 problem challenge earlier this year. Motivation came up a few times. I didn’t want to do my wii fit, braid my daughters hair and a few other chores. The solution I came up with was to weave this stuff into my schedule. Also if I don’t jam too much into one day that helps.

Also I wrote several times that desperation is motivational. However the desperation skews things and sometimes leads me down into rabbit holes and other strange places. I wake up and wonder, where am I and why do I have to do all of this work that has nothing to do with I really want to do?!?

A bout of desperation caused me-earlier this year-to volunteer for a program, get lots of books on the subject from the library, got to an all day event and listen to several hour long webcasts on the subject.

A subject I’m only mildly interested in by the way! While I’ve cut all ties with this particular subject matter, I have to admire my motivation!

On the other hand when something is built into your routine, you don’t need motivation. Yesterday it was 100 degrees in NYC. We have A/C in our bedrooms but not the kitchen yet I cooked a full meal. we’re talking chopping fresh brocoli and carrots, mincing garlic. I even turned on the oven! Every 15 minutes when I was waiting for something to boil, I’d go to my room to cool off for a bit, then go back. Was I “motivated” to cook with no A/C in 100 degree heat? I dont’ know but I did it because it’s part of my routine, to cook every night.

Today, it’s slightly cooler (91 degrees) and I did laundry in a steaming hot laundromat. Was I motivated? I don’t know, but I did it because my daughter needs her uniform skirts for this week and she’s fresh out.

The thing that I like about doing hard stuff like the two chores Idescribed above. (Okay, they’re not exactly “difficult.”) They’re more so “trying.” and the thing I like about doing these things is the reward of having it done. It feels FANTASTIC sitting here knowing I got the laundry out of the way early. So I have all of the rest of the day to chill. Well not chill exactly since there is still dinner to cook, but nothing I do for the rest of the day will be as “trying” as that particular task. 6 months ago

and i got to know myself better, that is crucial in order to motivate myself.
i was not happy in advance at all, i wasn’t in happy anticipation. like many times before, i needed to push myself and then enjoy the results.
i need to recognize the right push (i don’t want pushing myself, others did it too well in the past), i can call it determination. i informed myself, decided to do it, and than didn’t succumb to questioning it. i felt it is OK to stuck to original decision. 7 months ago

i really make an conscious effort to get myself out of this dark place i spent several years in it. good book helps, and also a good company. still, i’m sad, pretty much so, for not being able to make my relashionship work (and out household) to my greatest dissapointment, but i can’t watch my life croumble into dust any more. and i can’t keep killing myself. i want to have home more than anything but i need to find a way to accept that it is not happening. he is my only family and my everything. i need to find a strength to find myself and build my life, against all the odds. and who wants to be part of that new life, can. 7 months ago

i’m going to focus on motivating myself to catch up on my online terminology class… i’m way behind, but i can do this if i spend a few hours out of a day to get caught up. 9 months ago